Started with intense pain, worst of my life. The pain was suddenly gone. I found myself in a dark void. No light.
Slowly in the center of the void, I became aware of a change in color. The darkness had a pinpoint of grey. The grey slowly became white. This white spot began to grow. It was as if this white area was 3D. It was rising out of the void coming directly towards me. I saw it as either a volcano, or a pimple, no other way to put it. It was not a tunnel.
The white area continued to rise toward me. I got the impression that the white area was swelling from internal pressure. As it came closer, I felt that I could almost touch it. The most important thing was the feeling that the internal pressure was reaching a bursting point. Somehow, I knew that if the white area burst all of the void would be replaced with an intense, warm, bright light. I also knew that if it burst, I was gone. I did my best to will it not to burst. I was not ready for that.
Suddenly it was all gone, I was back in the catheterization lab and they were working on me, but the pain was gone.
Date NDE Occurred: May 1, 2001
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Disturbing
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I was not aware of a body, only the void and the light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt very alert but I could not have been.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
The event seemed like it lasted a very long time. But it must have been over in seconds.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No sound at all.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See description.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? ???
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I had to keep the light from bursting. I did not want it to, I did not fear it, but I was not ready for it.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I don't know what to believe.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was a visual/emotional experience, hard to share.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best? That it ended. Worst? Nothing comes to mind.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only my wife. She keeps questioning me about it, but I am having trouble explaining it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No