This is what led to my NDE. I was in my teens. I was out with friends, and some of them had been drinking. I had a real bad feeling about what was coming. We were trespassing at some abandoned mines, and we were drinking, even though we were underage. On the way home, we went over a large bump on a country road, and the driver lost control. The car spinning out of control caused everyone in the back seat except for me to fly out of the car. I was held in by my lap restraint. (I believe this is what initially tore my small intestine.) I was taken by helicopter to a local hospital where the doctor said everything was fine. I stayed there a few hours and then was sent home.
I slept for sixteen hours but when I tried to get up, I collapsed because renal failure had set in. I soon lost consciousness and was readmitted with septic shock to a different hospital. After a couple weeks of intensive care, I started to get better. Still, in the intensive care unit, I had an experience while they were attempting to administer a nutritional supplement through an NG tube. (This tube goes down through the nose and into the stomach. It's to help feed someone when they have a vent life support system going down the throat into the airways and lungs. I seemed to have an aversion to this tube. I had been restrained previously for pulling it out. Doing this can cause serious injury.) While receiving the nutrient, my body tried to purge it out. This resulted in my lungs filling up with the nutrient though the air vent, and I started suffocating.
I remember how it felt to die. My breaths got shorter and my eyes watered so everything became blurry. I thought to myself, 'This is it, and that's okay.' As I had that thought, everything went black. When I opened my eyes, I saw an undefined floor that looked like fog; and I heard soft soothing music. When I focused my eyes, I saw the light in front of me illuminating everything around me. There were figures to the right of me that looked like they were moving to the music. In the foreground stood a woman, my grandmother! She was beautiful. I had never met her. She had died of ovarian cancer when my mother was only a girl. First, she told me that I was welcome and I could stay. Then she let me know that although the damage to my body was great, if I wanted to go back I could. She told me that it would be very difficult for me, but in the end, I would grow a great deal from this. She told me that those close to me would be changed by this, too. Then she showed me what my family and friends were going through now. First, I saw, some of my close friends in a car talking about the car accident. Then I saw my grandparents talking about it, too.
So these were my near death experiences. The most bizarre part of this was the premonition dream I had had four years prior to the crash. This dream starts with me in a dark cathedral with old wooden pews and cobblestone floors. I notice that occupants of this church are very sick and pale. I proceed down the aisle with a shoebox-size package. The people in the pews start standing in front of me. As I approach them, I close my eyes and I see who they really are. At first what I see are images of small gargoyles. They get progressively larger and more frightening until I make it through the crowd and see that the last person is a sick old man. I close my eyes and then see a large snarling beast with red eyes, and horns coming from his shoulders. His mouth has sharp, crooked, intermingled teeth. He reaches inside me and pulls out my fear. I open my eyes and then I am in the car and the girl is on my lap. The driver is screaming and her hands have been forced off the steering wheel as we spin out of control and leave the pavement. This was like a snapshot taken of the night of the car accident - and it was shown to me in that dream four years before it actually happened. During the accident, I flashed back to the scene in that dream - I was in the old cathedral again, and there was an orb of light at the altar, illuminating the entire room.
Date NDE Occurred: June 23 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentSurgery-related Other multiple clinical deaths over a period of two weeks
I was a passenger in a drunk driving accident. We hit a telephone pole. The accident left me with severe internal injuries that were not properly diagnosed upon admission to the first hospital. The injuries were left untreated and this caused severe internal infection.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was at my highest level of consciousness at random times. I remember that I experienced certain events quite vividly and that at other times, I was sedated.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision changed throughout the experience. Some parts were in vivid color and detail and some were without much.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I think when you're dead these vibrations are felt like a sixth sense. When two people communicate, it is pure, without speech. Thoughts just flow from one and into the other.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmother, who died before I was born, greeted me with a choice to stay or go. She let me know that no matter what decision I made, I would always have a place there.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was warm, and I felt like I was a part of the light and it, a part of me.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm undesrcibable
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness and serenity, peace and love - love in its purest form, like a light.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal spiritual
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What is your religion now? Liberal spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes It seemed like a long time, but I was only gone for a couple of minutes.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There was a pure communication that did not required words. I felt it as a sort of extra sense.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I had a dream premonition about the car crash and that it was intertwined with another dream which had religious features.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Not long after I had been off the vent for a couple of weeks I told others about my experiences. Hearing about my experiences has changed everyone around me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No