After leaving my body I was pulled into a void or darkness. In the distance, I saw a white ball of light come close and closer to me. I couldn't really make out what it was until I got closer. I could tell it was a human form. Finally, I realized who it was. It was a deceased friend of mine who had committed suicide the previous year. I was very close to this person in life, we went to High School together and he was a support to me in life as well as in death. He told me that I needed to return there was a strong sense of needing to return. When I asked why he told me my life had a meaning and a purpose. It wasn't my time yet. I did return.
Date NDE Occurred: August 30, 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death
I had a heart attack due to an untreated heart condition known as Wolfe Parkinson White Syndrome.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I don't remember.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was very alert.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was clinically dead for about ten minutes but to me it seemed like time didn't really matter.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes See main narrative.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Utter Joy and Happiness, Indescribable Peace and calmness and love.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was told by my friend that I needed to return. I felt a sadness come over me I didn't want to go back. I felt that I had no choice but to return.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Born again Christian
What is your religion now? Moderate non denominational
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I realized that life is too short to worry about things, to love humanity, I have more compassion now, I don't feel afraid of death. Life is a precious gift. The individual I was before the experience is gone.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The emotions at the time of the experience is very hard for me to describe the feelings of indescribable peace. A wonderful Joy and happiness. No fear. The beauty of the experience is indescribable!
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best was the emotional part and seeing my friend again. The worst was the physical part of dying. It was extremely painful.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared this experience with my friend's mother and she was touched, almost jealous, that I had this encounter with her son. She wanted to know what he said. He had mentioned her to me briefly. I wasn't to tell her of my experience until the right time. She hadn't dealt with his death fully and was still grieving. She told me that she was still grieving over his loss. We have a special bond now.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No