I was standing in the kitchen of my home. My wife asked me a question and I tried to answer, my mouth opened but I couldn't speak. The next thing I knew, I was looking at myself collapsing to the floor from what appeared to be the inside of a large, dark tube. Everything in front of me became dark and I lost sight of myself. Then a bright white light appeared behind me. I was not able to turn around and look into the light. Instead, the light started slowly enveloping me on either side, almost like fingers of light. I still didn't turn around to face it. Then everything went black. I had a brief moment when I opened my eyes enough to see the flashing lights of an emergency vehicle. The next thing I remember is waking up in the intensive care unit of a hospital connected to tubes and IVs.
This wasn't quite the end. Once I was out of the hospital and mobile again, I would get strange feelings now and then. I could feel them coming on. My mouth would water and taste metallic. I would become weak and begin to sweat. Then I would become aware of a tunnel - I couldn't see it, but I knew it was there and voices would emanate from it. Then it would be gone. A couple of times, I thought I recognized a voice or a word. I can't remember what was said.
Date NDE Occurred: 'May, 2009'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Gran Mal brain seizure.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It happened so fast and unexpectedly, I really can't say.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It happened so fast and unexpectedly, I really can't say.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I knew that the light was behind be even though I didn't turn around to look at it.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Though I went in backwards.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was behind me and then began to reach around my sides.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I just felt odd - neither scared or elated.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'm more inquisitive about God and faith.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm more inquisitive about God and faith.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes The voices I heard for a time afterwards.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was probably a month after I had the experience. The reaction was with interest.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I thought it was fascinating. I couldn't understand it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real There's something beyond this life, but I'm still here for a reason.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No