My 10 year old daughter was staying home with me due to my illness. She was watching TV while I rested on the sofa. I left my body and looked down at the room from the ceiling. I then passed through the ceiling into the attic and then through the roof. I remember seeing the nails pass me. Outside I saw our cows in the field around the house. I knew each one and where it was. My travel then got faster and I traveled a long way. I entered a very light room where there were other being of very bright light. It was bright but it did not hurt my eyes like it would here on Earth. They were distinct personalities. I felt comfortable. They showed me past events of my life and future events. I felt the emotions of others and myself. I understood our reasons for our actions and the emotions of all involved. I felt all mercy, love and understanding. I saw the effect of my death on my daughter and her future if I returned. One of the entities asked me if I was willing to return. I said 'Yes, but…' I never got to finish. I really did not want to leave this wonderful place. I felt myself traveling very quickly. I slammed back into my body with a big jolt. It took one second to feel the pain and atmospheric pressure return to my body, all surfaces upon which felt were weighed down by heavy chains. It was horrible to be back but I thought that someday I would understand why I was returned.
Date NDE Occurred: 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
I was bleeding due to a uterine disorder.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Nothing could be verified. I saw my daughter, how, and where she was sitting. I saw the attic, roof and cattle in the field.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I had been in terrible pain for a long time so there was no life for me except pain. It was like living in the dark and separated from everything and everyone.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was alert during the whole experience. I had been in terrible pain for a long time so there was no life for me except pain. It was like living in the dark and being separated from everything and everyone.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see the light and I understood. It was like seeing with the mind since there were no earthly eyes.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Again, it was understanding. Words were said but not heard with ears. They were heard with understanding.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I felt the darkness around and then the light at the location where I went.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was light, but not as we experience it on Earth. There was light all around and the people were light.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Yes, it was clearly not of this realm.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, sorrow during the scenes of my life, understanding, mercy, love given and received.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I saw the effect on my daughter if I did not return. I wanted to help her but did not want to leave.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Just can't act the church behavior.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was surprised.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Nothing will ever be the same. I was changed. I have more understanding and know that there is so much more to understand.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin There were three entities there. They spoke through understanding. It was very pleasant.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Oneness exists
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes There is complete understanding there. God is all-knowing, in His presence we also have understanding, love, mercy...
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Having the experience gave me special knowledge.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We are to learn, improve ourselves to live in communion with God's plan.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I felt my experience and the location of where I was is entirely real.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes It is so wonderful there--like going home. We do not want to return but we still care about those we love here. We are just waiting for our loved ones to join us.
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Things happen but in the overall, time is only experienced on Earth. In the other realm our time here is but a speck.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is freely expressed and understood.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. Earthly worship is limited and man-made in many ways. We have a limited understanding and so many man created beliefs.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes Family members think I lie, or I am crazy or just don't care.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words for the light, the feeling of the travel, the entities and the re-entrance into my body.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember each detail even though I was not allowed to speak of it to any of my family members and it has been so many years. My memory has not changed or varied in any way.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of the experience was significant.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my husband soon after, but he would not respond and later said that he thought I was crazy. I traveled for my job the next five years and had the opportunity several times of sitting next to people on the planes who were going to or coming from a family death. I shared my experience and was told and felt this was a great comfort.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real No doubt
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real No doubt
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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