On January 3, 2009 in the early afternoon I began feeling gaseousness in my stomach. I popped some sort of medication and proceeded to my part-time job as a waitress as I was still in school. The pain increased. It was the worst pain I had ever felt; still to this day. I requested I be sent home from work and I drove home and began vomiting. I called my husband and proceeded to the emergency room with him. I was treated poorly at the hospital. They gave me a shot of morphine, told the pain would subside, and sent home. After a week of being stuck at home, I returned to work thinking I just needed to get moving again. Once at work, the pain began to centralize. After completing my shift, I proceeded to a different emergency room where I was told I no longer had an appendix. After a very, very long period of time, I was sent to the operating room. The bile had backed up into my system and gangrene had taken over my colon and intestines. While unconscious, or more to the point briefly dead, I had the experience of images of my past appearing to me briefly. It was a montage. They were familiar yet distant. They were not memories that are available for me to recollect. I do not understand the importance of those images or even if they are important. The best way to describe them is if you are familiar with the Harry Potter franchise, they were similar to the moving photographs. The last image is the only one I can recall and have spoken of. It was a brief fast forward and it was of my husband and me on a front porch with us surrounding a young boy. I knew it was our son. The house is not familiar to me as of yet. I had a feeling that everything was going to be okay. I saw my son before he was born. My last image was my husband and I kneeling down surrounding a boy about five on a front porch with white railing. I had such an overwhelming feeling of love, understandings that love was the most important thing and I was at peace. I awoke from surgery in some sort of waiting room where I asked two attendants what had happened to me and they told me to lie back down that I would remember none of what was transpiring. The next time I awoke, I was in my hospital room and after about a week on morphine, I began to hallucinate fuzzy spiders and marching hot pink ovals. My rapid recovery surprised my doctors and I was released early. I did a follow up visit to my primary care physician where I inquired about my mind not being able to function the way it once did. I was brushed off. My thought process is not the same. It is hard to describe but it often feels like a fog. Almost to the day, a year later, I found out I was pregnant.
Date NDE Occurred: 01/10/2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Surgery-related. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had appendicitis.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know, I was in surgery and unconscious.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was in surgery and unconscious.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was in surgery and unconscious.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt love and at peace with everything and everyone. It was so beautiful.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No Love is the most important thing.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I saw my son before he was born. My last image was my husband and I kneeling down surrounding a boy of about five on a front porch with white railing. I knew everything would be okay. Almost to the day, a year later, I found out I was pregnant. My child greatly resembles the boy in my image. The house is unknown to me.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am trying to understand ancient beliefs and practices, those more pagan.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? No comment
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I don't feel the question applies to my experience.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain I felt connected to everything and loved.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Love.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Love is all that matters.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? Unknown No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Unknown
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It was so beatiful the enormous feeling of love. There was no pain or worrying. Only peace and love.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I do not like the way your survey discusses 'God'. I was raised protestant but never identified with it. I believe in energy and something greater than us but do not necessarily believe in how we define 'God'. I think mankind is very arrogant and juvenile to believe we were made in its image. I also do not fear death but am fearful of my child not having his mother.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I am more committed to family.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events at time It is becoming more distant and it saddens me that I can not remember more. I am trying to find a way to connect with what happened. I would like to experiment with DMT.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing was meaningful.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have always had an interest in the supernatural.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain The birth of my son solidified my experience. I am just trying to understand it more.
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