I had gastric bypass surgery on April 6, 2004. Surgery was fine, and after recovery, I was sent to my room with no complications. Sometime in the late evening, I started feeling clammy, cold (as if I had an episode of low blood sugar). I asked my sister to call the nurse. My blood sugar at the time was high. I knew something 'different' was happening to me. When you are dying, your body fights death. The feeling was one of desperation. I asked my sister to pray for me because I knew I was dying. I remember saying Amen to all her prayers constantly. I heard the doctor call out orders to give me medications that I recognized as those given to patients who are coding (I am a nurse). The room was full of nurses and I remember my physician, the surgeon, who would talk to me constantly telling me what she was doing. The last thing I remember her telling me was that she had to place a femoral line in order to give me more medications. I remember her telling me I did well.
Then all of a sudden, everyone in the room disappeared and the room was filled with the most beautiful white light, it engulfed everything, and at the same time, the struggle my body was having with death left me. I could only feel overwhelmingly fine, at peace, surrounded by love, the purest love, unconditional total love. I knew I was 'dead' and told God that if it was time for me to go, I would go happy and willing but if He had something else I needed to do, I would go back. Just as soon as I had that thought, everyone reappeared in the room, the nurses, doctors, my sister praying.
I was told I'd be placed in the intensive care unit where I remained for a week. Recovery was very difficult, hard. It took me more than three months to go back to work. I do look forward to crossing over. I have no fear whatsoever.
Date NDE Occurred: 'April 6-7, 2004'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' severe hypoxia post gastric bypass
After surgery I experienced a severe episode of diabetic ketoacidosis with hypoxia.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I was conscious during the entire process.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was conscious during the entire process.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no sense of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The brightness of the white light cannot be compared to anything I have ever seen or experienced.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The entire room was filled with light, everything in the room disappeared to give room to the light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No Juat the light
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Total elation, wellbeing, peace, love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have become more spiritual. Religion has passed to a second level.
What is your religion now? Liberal Not bounded to ay religion
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have become more spiritual. Religion has passed to a second level.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The change. The view of life from a different perspective, changes in priorities, people become more spiritual, more sensitive towards other people.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my sister immediately and have shared with others when the opportunity appears.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes As I nurse I had to resuscitate clients and several of them impressed me, especially a lady we resuscitated on the floor after coding in the bathroom. She woke up with this huge grin on her face and told us she was hovering over us and explained everything we did to her. Another lady had a really bad heart and had coded several times, her children would not allow her to be a 'no' code. I would sit with her at night and he would tell me of the places she had visited while dead.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As a glimpse into our metamorphosis when our spiritual (energy) abandons our physical body (transport) and enters another dimension.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Definitely real, life changing because - how do you explain to others in words what has been experienced in another dimension when it is all too hard to understand by others who don't know, or haven't experienced.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? My friends have become concerned since I speak of death so freely and unafraid, even looking forward to the day it finally happens. I will never commit suicide, but I look forward to crossing.
At times I feel very alone, people do not understand how I feel. I try not to talk too much about it because they might think I'm loony. I am trying to certify in Thanatology because I believe death is a natural process and people dying and their family members should have someone to help them both go through the process in the easiest, serene and peaceful way.