Experience Description

Hello I am a 43-year-old male. I want to share my near-death experience with you because I really haven't told anyone about everything that I witnessed and saw while I was dead twice.

When I was a kid, I was very active and never chose to sit inside and be lazy but instead I would go outside and do something. I loved sports and the outdoors. I did not do drugs, alcohol or smoke. This pattern continued until my first heart attack at 25.

The following year I had another heart attack and that was when I had my first NDE. I remember being in my mom's room while she was on her computer. One minute I was talking with her and the next, I remember being in the ambulance with the paramedics working on me. I told them I was fine and asked them what were they doing and why they were all rushing around. It was confusing; but as I was telling them I was fine, I started feeling my chest hurt and BOOM! I woke up again.

I was standing in front of a massive building. Actually, 'building' is not quite right but it's difficult to describe. In front of the building were tall pillars like those old Roman temples. The light seemed to be coming from all around, like there was no source of the light because it was everywhere. The front of the building had one giant doorway. The was no door, just an open arch way. As I looked at this building, my uncle who died approximately five or six years before this, was standing beside me. He told me that I needed to go into the building and he would walk with me.

I walked with my uncle through this massive coliseum with the huge pillars lining the entire way. As we were walking, we said nothing because it felt like nothing needed to be said. I was calm and didn't feel like I needed to worry at all. As I got to about the middle of this room, I heard my grandfather's voice saying, 'This is not your time.' We stopped and I opened my eyes.

I was in the hospital. The heart doctor put in a stent in my body and said that I was lucky to be alive. I had been clinically dead for 14 minutes.

I continued to be plagued with health problems over the next 10 years, during which I had more heart attacks, multiple knee surgeries, a neck fusion, all my lower back was fused.

Then I had another major heart attack. This time I woke up in a beautiful, rolling field and was standing on the edge of a large pond. As I look around, I saw that same huge pillar building on the top of a hill in the back-left part of this field. There was a waterfall that seemed to be coming from nowhere that was falling into the other side of this large pond. As I looked, I had noticed that where the water was falling into the pond there was was no disturbance, like splashing or ripples. It was quite beautiful. There was also a tree-line on the back-right side of this field that came from the right-back side and came all the way out almost to the middle of this field. This tree-line is important. As I looked around, I saw my uncle again. In our communication, I never saw his mouth move, he just kept that smile. It was more like his voice was put right into my head. He was smiling at me as he said, 'Hello again' I remember laughing and he raised his arms and asked, 'Do you like it?' as he referred to my surroundings. I answered, 'Yes I do.' He brought one of his arms down and motioned towards the pond as he said, 'This is where we are going to be doing our fishing.' As I looked down I could see that I was standing about an inch off the top of the water. I looked straight down into the pond and saw large fish swimming around. Then I looked back up to him and he motioned to me to join him on the other side. He said, 'There is someone waiting for you.'

I immediately get this feeling that ran throughout my whole body. The closest I can describe the feeling would be Love, but with that feeling also came infinite knowledge. This knowledge was telling me that I knew exactly who was waiting for me, which made me even happier.

In life, I had excruciating pain every time I moved or sat for long periods of time. But when I was dead and on the other side, I felt none of that pain and none of that depression. I felt happy. This feeling isn't the kind of happy that's the same as 'I'm so happy because I got a new car or happy that Haagen-Dazs ice cream has made a new chocolate flavor. This was the kind of happy like all the happy-times of my life all rolled up into a constant feeling of true Happiness.

When I say that we walked, 'walking' is probably not the right word for that either. It was more like gliding, so while I was there I felt no pain at all or did not get tired from moving or walking/gliding.

I immediately knew who was waiting for me and where I needed to go. My uncle and I started walking/gliding across this field and moving toward the tree-line in the back-right section of this field. The trees were large but not as large as a sequoia. It was full of fall-season, colored leaves. When we reached the edge of the tree-line that stopped about midway through the field we saw a house. The two-story, beautiful house had a porch. As I walked to the corner of the house to look down the other side of the house, I noticed that the house was attached to a truck. The house was not just being pulled by the truck but actually like the house was the bed of the truck. It was like someone could drive the truck and take the house with them. But when I saw what truck it seemed to make sense. It was a green dually. A dually is larger than a normal pickup truck and is usually meant to pull 5th-wheel trailers.

I came back to the porch of the house, went to the door, and knocked on it. I knew exactly who was going to open it. I just knew it was going to be my dad who had passed a few years before this happened. I knew it with every part of my being. But before he got to open the door, I heard another familiar voice behind me. It was my grandfather who had passed around the same time my dad did. He was the same grandfather who pulled me from there the last time I died. This time he seemed almost... I can't say angry because it was not anger, but concerned. It was like being a child, doing something dangerous, and my parents ran over and held me saying, 'Never do that again! Do you know how dangerous that is? We could have lost you!' It's a concerned scolding, I guess is the best way to put it. Anyway, I didn't see him but that's the way his voice sounded. He said this time, not speaking to me but sounding like he was speaking to his son, my uncle. He scolded, 'HE IS NOT DONE YET. HE HAS TO GO BACK.' I felt my grandfather's hand grab my arm as I was pulled up.

Then my eyes opened and I was lying on a hospital bed with nurses and doctors standing over me. I had a few follow-up appointments with this heart doctor who was the doctor that was standing over me when I woke up he said, 'Mr. B you are the luckiest man I've seen.' I figured he was going to tell me because your are here and to change my diet, etc. But, no, he told me that I was clinically dead for 27 minutes and that they had been working on me the whole time. He said that he had put down the defibrillator and said, 'I'm calling it.' That means they were stopping their attempts to bring me back to life. He continues by saying, 'I put the paddles down, looked up at the clock and said 'Mark down TIME OF DEA[TH]...' As he was trying to say the word 'death' the heart monitor beeped once. He said, ' Huh? Well let's try one more shock.' As they shocked me one more time, my eyes popped open-wide, looking around the room and trying to move around. I heard a nurse say, 'Oh my god!' and another said, 'He must have a guardian angel looking over him.' He also told me that they had shocked me with the defibrillator over 13 times. I had the burns on my chest to prove it.

I have been to the same place twice after dying. I saw the same person greet me both times. I was pulled from that place twice by the same person. Each time was not identical, so it wasn't like my brain was trying to show me the same thing twice. It showed me exactly where I was going when I do happen to die. It also showed me that I have led a good life because if I hadn't, I'm sure that experience would have been a whole lot different. The first time I died, I believe that the hallway of pillars that I was walking down was bringing me to someone very important. But the second time where I was going to see my dad, the first time felt different, as in, it felt more important.

My NDE was real despite what naysayers might say. My opinion cannot be changed.

ONE MORE THING--- I am looking for a talented artist that can draw what I saw both times I died. I don't have any money to pay this person but I will greatly appreciate it. I expect it to take a tries unless there is a way to be with the artist to make real-time modifications.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: About 1999

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Heart attack. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. While I was there, I had no pain. I was able to see perfectly even though I wasn't wearing glasses. Colors were so much more colorful. I was able to feel love and know things without contact or without being told.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was there, I didn't have any concerns of what was going on back here.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. While I was there, it felt like I had been there for hours at least. But I was only clinically dead for 14 minutes the first time and 27 minutes the second time

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was much clearer. Everything seemed like it was in HD vision.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember hearing, it was more like words were in my head only. My Uncle Reggie talked with me and his lips didn't move.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my Uncle Reggie both times who had passed away when I was younger. I had a knowledge of going to see my dad who had passed and I heard and felt the touch of my Grandfather who had passed. All people that I saw, heard, or had knowledge of had passed away before my two NDEs.

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes It was everywhere, coming from all directions. There were no shadows. There was no cold or hot temperature; it was perfect.

The experience included: An unearthly landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Emotions were heightened. Love was so much more than what we know here. I felt Happiness, welcomed, surprise, and overwhelmed.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I can't explain this. This was the hardest thing to try and explain. I can't even try.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. I felt something like there was a higher Being but did not point at one religion or the other.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I study and read the bible very often and pray to Jesus every morning and every night.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian. I know that Jesus was waiting for me and still is. My grandfather pulled me back twice, and I know for sure the first time I was going to see Jesus.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I knew there was something and someone bigger. But I wasn't 100% sure until these NDEs happened.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know for sure that God is waiting for us all. I wasn't sure before. I know for a fact now that Jesus is waiting to embrace me.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes All I can say is during my first NDE while I was walking through the hall with the pillars, the feeling I had (which was more than a feeling) it was more of a knowledge that was given to me. I was on my way to see Jesus.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes My Uncle was taking me to see someone important and before my grandfather pulled me out, the knowledge that I was being told mentally, I guess is the best way to put it, is that I was going to see GOD. I know that through the doorway at the end of this hall, I would have been in front of Jesus.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know just from what I saw that there is something after we die, and it is so beautiful. I have led a good life and that I will be in that love and beauty someday. We all can.

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes. I was being taken to who I believe was Jesus, and both times I was in a place that was so beautiful it was hard for me to put it into words. During my second NDE, I was going to see my dad who had passed. He was living in a house that was attached to a truck that was his dream truck that he owned before I was born. The house didn't seem familiar but if I had to guess what kind of house my dad would live in, knowing him my whole life, he would have chosen that kind of house.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain The only thing I can say to this was that when my grandfather pulled me out during the second NDE he said, 'He is not done yet. He has to go back' and the first NDE, 'It's not his time.' But I was not told what it was that I had to do.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain. When I was there, Love is so much more of a deeper feeling than it is here. It is so hard to explain. It's so 'complete.' I don't know why I said 'complete' but it seems like the right word for it.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The colors are so much more colorful and feelings are so much more deeper feeling.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I have a spotty memory of before and after both NDEs. But both NDEs are clear.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Both times I died, my Uncle Reggie was there to greet me. I know my dad and my Grandfather were there also waiting for me. I felt and knew that Jesus was there to welcome me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain Only a few people. I am not sure how people would react in this day and age.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. No words in any language can explain the exact events that happened. Even today, as I write this, I can't believe that it happened and can't believe I saw what I did.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The experience was so real that it is imprinted into my mind.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was real. No one can tell me otherwise. No scientific explanation could ever explain or take away those events.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No