As a child I had a terrible longing to see a group of loving beings I called the 'white' people. All I remember is that I once visited them in a place that seemed to have no boundaries. They were an ethereal group in white gossamer robes with no distinct facial features. The area was illuminated with a white light, yet with no obvious physical lighting. I distinctly remember there was something delightful there associated with animals, something I could ride on. A rocking horse is the only way my childish mind could describe it, but it was more magnificent and lion-like. I would ask my mom when I could visit them again, but she never understood what I was talking about. I eventually stopped asking, thinking it was a dream; until, as an adult, my mother introduced me to a man she said saved my life. When I was two, I was strangled by my toddler swing when it tipped upside down while I was still strapped in it. My mother said I turned blue and stopped breathing and she was screaming in panic, not knowing what to do. The neighbor jumped the fence and gave me CPR to revive me. It all made sense after she told me. To this day I can't wear watches without them dying after a while and I still feel intense love when I think about the 'white' people.
Date NDE Occurred: 1969
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I was strangled by an upturned toddler swing.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I don't remember any of the experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No I don't remember
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't remember
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The people were pure love and I knew instinctively they accepted me as I was and desired my presence among them.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No I was too young. Everything just seemed right.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian Staunchly Christian, but shy away from big organized religion.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I had few if any beliefs at that young age.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I was too young to understand the significance.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I was too young to understand the concept.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Uncertain I think these people were angels, but I was too young to understand the term.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes The being's love was pure and unconditional.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown Unknown
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Words do not suffice in explaining the connection and desire to be with these people again. As a child I wanted to be with them more than my own family.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can't wear watches, the batteries die too quickly and the time always becomes inaccurate.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The love of the beings.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About 30 years later with my husband. He was intrigued. I don't think it influenced him greatly.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Don't remember
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real It still feels emotional when I think about the beings thus I think there is something to it. The emotions go beyond what you would feel in a dream. Plus, I have hung onto that memory for over 40 years.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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