I was a stewardess at the time. I flew a lot and I was tired. I caught a white angina bacterium that wasn't easily cured. The streptococcus got to my heart valves causing valve damaged. I was transported in emergency to a suburb hospital. They did not see that my valve was damaged. After twelve hours, I was eventually transferred to a hospital in Paris. Upon arrival, I felt myself fade away. I don't remember anything except waking up in a room. Then I was transferred to another hospital because I was in critical condition.
This is when I had my experience. I don't know the exact date. I first saw myself as some sort of big smoke - it was me but not in my body. I tried to see my arms, my legs, nothing. I could only see myself as smoke. I turned around in some sort of concrete swimming pool, and I was not alone there. Somebody else turned around with me. I did not talk to him, I did not even try to, and we turned around clockwise. I don't know how I came back into my body. (Later I was told that I was in the intensive care unit and the person in the room next to mine was in a coma, maybe that was him. I don't know).
After that, or around the same time (I can't measure time during this period) I heard a very stressful noise next to me, it was the machine connected to my heart and I opened my eyes. The ceiling turned into a very bulgy cloud, and I climbed into it. There I felt fine but I knew there was something wrong. All of a sudden, somebody appeared in front of me. He was young with a beard. I told him, 'When do I go back down to earth?' He said, 'But you are already on earth.'
I did not believe him. I asked the same question again, he replied the same answer and I got back down into my body.
Then, and again, much after or after or before, I don't know. I found myself in a tunnel, but this tunnel was half-full of water, there was a light in the end, the water brought me there and indeed, I did not want to go. I don't know why I thought that, I saw some kind of opening on my left, I would say another tunnel, but on my left I heard my dog barking, calling me. Effortlessly I went to my left and I exited the tunnel. I was stranded on some sort of embankment, my dog was there, and after that I don't remember.
Date NDE Occurred: 26 aout 1998
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessHeart attack Other Rupture de valve suite a une angine blanche
I had this experience several times, and each time the machine connected to my heart was buzzing, so I believe my heart stopped.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Every moment, I see all this clearly.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Every moment, I see all this clearly.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Unable to measure time even now.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard a lot of things but I could not answer, I was there but I was not there.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes See text.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes See text.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See text.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? In clouds, tranquility, peace, no fear. In the tunnel I was scared.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I feel I've been requested to live my life fully and happily, and to forgive. But this is more my own personal appreciation than really a delivered message.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes One year later, people are divided, some believe it, others think that the brain shows us all this, I don't try to convince anybody.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because I am sure I lived it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Because I am sure I lived it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No