I can recall that everything around me, everything my eyes can see, and my reality disappeared. It felt like it dropped, I went up, or out of it. It was like everything you can see with your eyes became liquid and dropped down. I can remember that I was seeing reality became liquid and that all the colors on earth were traveling with my presence inside of it. I was traveling at high speed through some sort of pipeline leading to a hole. I was like a swirl such as like water being sucked down a hole in the sink. Once I was through the hole, I heard several noises like I was going through a sound barrier 'bof, bof, bof.' I was tumbling and had difficulty flying straight like I was in space. I remember being very cold. I could hear myself thinking, 'It's so cold.' I felt frightening for a second. Then I saw what looked like a black hole. I reminded me of the movie 'Contact' with Jody Foster. I saw flashes of very blight light. I did not want to go through the back hole but I had to go. I had no choice in the matter. I just tumbled or flew through it downwards. Then I was in a black void, nothingness. But, I was still able to think. I heard my deceased grandmother talking to me and it felt like I could hear her thoughts as she addressed them to me. It was like she was talking through means of telepathy. I remember thinking, 'I am dead. But I don't want to be dead. I have to take care of my best friend and dogs. Then I heard another voice. This time it was an unfamiliar female voice asking me, 'Do you love Malcolm?' That is the name of my best friend. It felt like I was arguing to plead my case to stay alive for those reasons. Then I flew back the way I came. I again heard the three short noises like going through a sound barrier 'bof, bof, bof.' I then saw myself from above. Everything was spinning, yet I still could see myself getting closer and closer to my body. Then I opened my eyes while sitting on my knees screaming, 'Yes, I love Malcolm!' I remember I had a feeling that everything is going to be O.K.
Date NDE Occurred: 10-03-2013
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
My heart stopped and the emergency people that where called, told my mates that my heart stopped.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw myself from above in the left-hand corner of my room. I was clearly looking down on myself.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness The same only the way of communication is different, like thinking aloud.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout the whole time, until the point I had to plead my case to stay alive.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There is no time. The whole experience felt like it lasted several hours, although I only was dead for 10 minutes.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was the same, although my surroundings were darker, like being in space with a bit of light. It was like candlelight in a pitch-black room.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was different from on earth. When I was dead, I started to communicate in a different manner that was telepathic.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Twice during my NDE, I experienced traveling through or going through a hole.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmother's voice and another female voice that I could not recognize.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw flashes of light.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place My whole experience until the point where I could see myself from above looking down on me. This happened in a different dimension or realm.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness. Frightened. Blissfulness
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- New age I believe in extra-terrestrial life
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes As stated before, I now am certain death is just part of life and not the end: just a part of our journey.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age I believe in extra-terrestrial life
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I believed in heaven but am now an atheist who believes the some sort of afterlife.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now am certain that death is just another doorway towards a different kind of existence.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I heard a female voice asking me a question, which was, 'Do you love Malcolm?'
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes The expierenced made me realise that I loved and love my bf malcolm.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes An unfamiliar female voice asked me a question.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes My grandmother informed me and told me that I had died.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes My experience made me realise that all of us are here because of love.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? I have changed. Now I don't even squash a fly or ant. Now I go out of my way to protect and respect any living creature. Why? I am not sure. Maybe out of love and a bit out of fear due to the fact I now am certain that there is an afterlife and that I will be judged somehow.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Contact with deceased loved ones continues after death. The feeling of love and acts of love is why we are here on this plane of existence.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told the people around me when came back to life.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It's real death is only the beginning.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Either I am delusional or crazy. However, I now am convinced that there is an afterlife and that what we are, our consciousness is using our human body as a vessel to exist on this plane of existence. Love is the strongest force on earth and we are somehow part of that force.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nothing to add, at this present time.
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