As I came through a white light, I saw him standing there - tall, young and wearing a brown military uniform, and I just knew who he was when he reached out his hand. I saw what I had seen my whole life: a hand like my dad's hand. As I went to hug him, I was overcome with a deep sorrow and I just cried - a deep cry that I know I have never felt before. I cried for his short life, for his 3-year old son he never saw grow up, for my grandmother who never remarried, and for me, for the grandfather I never knew.
We talked about his plane crash in WWII. I told him that his death was never a subject brought up when I was growing up, and that I only knew a little about him. He explained that my grandmother (his wife) had dealt with her grief in 1945, but that this subject was hard for her. I told him that I was feeling guilty for really never taking an interest in him. He laughed and said, ‘I know, but now the time has come.’ We walked and talked for what seems like a very long time. It was not rushed; it was peaceful.
As we walked, I remember meeting other men who had been killed in action. My grandfather stressed over and over how it was my time ‘to set the plane crash right.’ At that time, I knew I wanted to stay, but my grandfather walked me back to what seemed like the outskirts of a town that was still in 1945. At the edge of town was the white light, at that moment I felt a deep sadness for leaving him. As we walked to the light, he gave me a hug and said, ‘When you have doubt, or sadness, remember this hug and the warm breeze and you will know it was real.’ I took in every scent of him. I even ‘thought’ I caught my hand on a medal on his jacket. My grandfather and I went to the light and I felt so torn, but with his words of ‘I love you, and I will be here when you are ready, but not now for there is so much for you to do.’
I asked him about my son whom I had just had. He told me to be strong, ‘Joey will have a mild problem but it will all work out.’ We hugged again and I walked back to the warm light. I know I saw myself lying on the bed with many tubes, and a nurse, and that was it.
Date NDE Occurred: 2/11/1997-4/1/1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth massive organ fail, brain swellingI was 7 months pregnant with my third child when I developed HELLP Syndrome.
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes As a whole person.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure. I think I was consciousness.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I felt time was from another period.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Walked out of a tunnel into a town.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I met people in this town who all seemed to know me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes White, warm, inviting.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The whole town was warm, all flowers were in bloom, and the colors were beautiful.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Strong connection. Love. Deep sadness.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more sensitive and feel strongly about things.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I feel that no one will believe me and my biggest question is, ‘Why?’
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Meeting my grandfather and not being able to bring him back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Most just think I dreamed it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.