I was suffering from an attack of kidney stones for the third time that week, and a new doctor came in and said, 'I'm going to give you the maximum pain reliever that you can take, for your weight: 250 mg of a mixture of morphine and Demerol.' The Certified Nursing Assistant (CNA) came in a minute later and injected it into my hip. I thought it was wrong for a CNA to give injections, but I didn't question it. The needle looked a lot more full than usual. I had been praying vary hard, because twice previously the pain had stopped during my recitation of the 'Our Father' prayer; when I had said the words, 'Give me this day, my daily bread.' But this time it wasn't working. A moment after the injection, I was suddenly in front of a great Light. It had to have been God! It was so powerful that no words can describe it. The closest I can come is to say it was like being suddenly placed a few feet from the Sun; but instead of feeling heat, you feel Love, infinite Love. The Love emanated out in all directions in slow, gentle rays of light. Never can I forget it. Thirty years later, it's still what I mostly think about. A vision of a man appeared down to the right of the powerful Light. I presumed it was Jesus. He looked like he does in most paintings. He was wearing a white robe and was extending his hands out to greet me. Behind me, I felt the whole world carrying on - past, present, and future. I looked down at my current time period on the Earth, and wasn't too interested. I did feel curious about past settlers who had come across the Atlantic, and I became aware of three little ships on the sea which I started moving towards. They could have been Columbus' ships but I stopped because I didn't want to leave the presence of this Love. Then the Loving Power pointed me towards a city; it looked like New York City. It had that city's profile, with the Empire State Building and the Chrysler Building, but not the World Trade Center Towers. I wondered why God was showing me this, and a voice telepathically said, 'I have a Plan.' The city was grey, and it was smothered in what looked like a fog. I presumed it was meant to symbolize any city, but on the day of 9/11, I realized that I had seen the future. What I had thought was fog, was dust. After this, the light disappeared and I felt like I was naked in a sand storm. There was a terrible sound, and I felt I was being crushed in a vice. My earthly eyes opened and I realized the sand storm was just me feeling my skin again, the noise was just me hearing again, and the crush was just the two thin bed sheets that had been laid over me. I sat up on the side of the bed and said, 'What was that? Take me back there!' And that has been my prayer ever since.
Date NDE Occurred: April 1982
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening
I was suffering from kidney stones and was given an overdose, of a mixture of morphine and Demerol.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes The past (Columbus' ships on the Sea), present (my life) and future (New York City on 9/11.)
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt as big as a galaxy. I knew, or could know, anything and everything I wanted to know. When I looked at my life on this earth, it was like looking at the life of an ant.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All through it, but mostly when I was in front of the Power of God.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Things were shown to me as I willed, or as God willed.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see in all directions and all time and all places.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear with my ears. Communication was telepathic, with infinite LOVE included.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Like the sun.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, Love, Love; to infinity and forever, since there is no time in Heaven.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I knew everything, and I wanted to know and more.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future From the world's future, I saw New York City in what I thought was a fog (in 1982) but later recognized it as New York City in a cloud of dust on 9/11.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes We don't need religion. God is Love and just wants us to Love. A child is closest to God because they Love unconditionally.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience My Catholic faith pretty much describes what I experienced.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes All things that matter are relative to what you will take with you; memories etc.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Jesus
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus.
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain This world is like a dream, not real, so connections are not real either. We are all connected to GOD who emanates us out of his Love.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes YES
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt like Jesus' brother, we have the same Father/Creator.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Life here is short and insignificant, like the life of an ant is to us. But But God Loves us so much our soul is very important and our soul lives forever.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes Definitly there is a more real world after this one. This world is like God's dream that we wake up from when we die and are 'born' into the presence of GOD.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes LOVE is all we need to do.
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Life here is like a dream that God is having. Imagine if you created a world in your mind, then that world exists in your mind. So this world exists because God is creating it.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes God is LOVE....LOVE is God. When we feel Love, we feel God.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Love is what matters to everyone.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words to describe how much God Loves.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I have been able to help some people deal with the loss of a loved one.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it, but mostly the Love of God. Sadly. I can't feel it here.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Several months before this, I shared it and they didn't believe me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was real because the coming back was so dramatic.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can pray and God responds. I know he Loves me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Our drug problems are due to people seeking an 'elusive' heaven. To help people on drugs, we need to Love better, unconditionally.
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