I suddenly woke up in what I can only describe as an open space of light. I saw several human forms made of light. In the blink of an eye, two of these forms suddenly appeared on either side of me. When I looked at them from close up, I could see into their brilliance. I could see their features. One of them was my grandmother and the other was my dad. They were made of light. It was them but much younger and more perfect. My grandmother proceeded to welcome me home, not to worry we will take good care of you were her exact words. This was not speech; it was more like telepathy. I really can't describe the overwhelming feeling of peace, love, joy and RELIEF!!! I was finally back home. It was like my memory of this place was coming back. I knew so much there that I don't remember now. But I do remember feeling like I was away at school and I had finally come home. That place truly is my home and I can't wait to get back there. I did come back. I didn't want to. I felt an unseen force pull me away from them.
I felt a jolt and I woke up in my body with my son shaking my arm and saying, 'I've got him, he's back.' My first thought was how limited my body was. I had to use eyes to see, ears to hear and a body to feel. It felt awful, not to mention I was very ill. I felt trapped in my body. As I was being pulled away from my dad and grandmother, one thought was in the forefront, 'Trust in God and pray.' My dad has been dead for twelve years and my grandmother thirty. I came away from this experience knowing that we're from there not here.
Date NDE Occurred: 1 22 09
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
I had some kind of bowel attack, losing half of my body fluid in about ten minutes time. I went into hypothermic shock.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When my grandmother was talking with me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
My wife said I was unconscious for less than a minute. But to me the experience was much longer. I can't put a number on it.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The experience is so different than using your senses here. You don't use eyes, ears or your body to sense things with. I could see all around me but didn't feel like I was looking around. I could feel the love, peace, joy all over me and through me. I don't recall smelling anything.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No really audible sounds or speech, kind of like mind to mind communication.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes In the light, there were several, I felt I knew them all but my grandmother and father came and communicated with me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was all around us, not only could you see it but you could feel it.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the place I went was an area of light
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extreme joy, love, peace and relief.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I must admit I am a little torn, I'm a church going Bible believing Christian. My dad or my grandmother both never seemed to be very religious. But I know they are both in this wonderful place. I didn't feel any judgment or any negative feelings in any way.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I must admit I am a little torn, I'm a church going Bible believing Christian. My dad or my grandmother both never seemed to be very religious. But I know they are both in this wonderful place. I didn't feel any judgment or any negative feelings in any way.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The only thing I can say is I feel I knew so much more than what I do now. It's like my brain can't comprehend the things I knew during my experience.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm more patient with other people. I know that they're in school just like me.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Some of it was indescribable. The way I felt, the things I knew.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The part where I was told to trust in God and pray.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The first thing I said when I came back was you took me out of my happy place. I didn't recall all of it at first and maybe I still don't recall it all. Once I recalled all I know now I shared it with members of my family and some people at my church.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes This was my third NDE the first was during a four-wheeler wreck. The second was during a procedure at a hospital. My third one is the one I shared with you because to me it was the most significant. All three have differences and similarities. I would like to share them all with you if you would like. I have a medical condition where my heart shuts down and I loose circulation to my brain. This has happened to me several times in my life. My second NDE was a result of one of these episodes. I suspect I have NDEs every time this happens but I just can't remember them.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As time has passed there is not a day that I don't think about it. It just can't be shrugged off. It was more real than what we know now as reality. I can't wait until I get to go back for good.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The experience was definitely real. Like I said there's not a day goes by that I don't think about it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Not that I'm aware of.