It was irreversible fear. I knew something was wrong right away. My heart felt as if it was beating out of my chest so fast words could not describe. I was gasping for breath. I was only 22 years of age and had no religious faith. I was slowly beginning to question my survival. I was able to remain conscious until the ambulance arrived. When they hooked me up to the heart monitor, I was running at about 160 beats per minute. I was rushed to the hospital. Upon arrival, I was taken into the emergency cardiac section. Doctors and paramedics continued to try to get my attention. They were asking me what my pain levels were. I had no chest pain, just 180 bpm irregular heartbeat.
I blacked out. Then I was hovering over the room and myself. I could see the intravenous and other things in the room, but the people were very hard for me to see. I shot off very fast leaving everything behind. There was no sound, only images. For several minutes I hovered over a large black pyramid object, I then shot off faster than before. I was moving through what seemed to be space. Planets and stars seemed very close to me. Still there was no sound. I felt complete peace and felt as if I was on my way to some place special. Faster than I left, I was back.
I opened my eyes. About six people were standing around me. One woman smiled at me and said 'We thought we were going to lose you'. My return back into my body was more of a forceful entry, not anything gentle. After my experience, I started to question a lot about life. I turned my attention to meditation and spiritual work; I was seeing and hearing things I could not explain. I know what they are now so I pay close attention. I do healing work. I’m one of those who came back with some strange abilities such as seeing auras.
I am very intuitive and I never was before, I am very close to my spiritual side. Even if it’s not god directly I do believe in universal energy and I truly feel that is what I was returning to. Good luck to all who have truly shared in this experience. The final stage of my journey was the most wonderful before I returned. Where I once had a fear of death there is only peace. None of us can escape it. Just know it is not the end. This body is just the first stage in many transitions before us.
Date NDE Occurred: 9/1998
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes metro valve prolapse of some kind. 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As I was moving through what seemed to be a vortex in space things began to slow down as if I was approaching my end. I felt as if I understood everything. Overwhelming strength and peace came over me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Near what I considered to be the end of my journey.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I was moving so fast and knew that I was, yet things around me seemed large and to pass by very slowly.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? My vision was greatly increased, I was able to see things as close or as far as I needed. There was no strain involved it was almost like auto zooming a camera. If I felt I needed to see something I just looked at it, no thought or strain required.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? There was no sound at all. It was all thought, telepathic you could say. I was shown images. I did not hear voices.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Not so much a tunnel as a vortex
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes All kind of light, soft and bright depending upon how much I decided to see. Everything was up to me. Nothing was in control of my actions. There were no physical limitations.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I saw a large black pyramid structure, I hovered over it and stared for a moment then I was pulled off as if sucked into a vacume into this vortex. I was able to see space, large planets seemed very close and large almost close enough to touch. it was a very wonderful experience despitie what ever my body was going through.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first upon seeing the structure I was afraid. After I shot off very fast it was wonderfully peaceful, almost exciting.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future My gifts into future events did not begin to happen till after my return to my body.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I began to follow my inner voice through meditation along with the voices of others and turned all my energy toward helping others. I understand that we are all connected and that there is not one ultimate power but shared universal energy that transcends any telescope or satellite.
What is your religion now? Moderate 'Faith based, very involved with spirit meditation and listening to the soul'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I began to follow my inner voice through meditation along with the voices of others and turned all my energy toward helping others. I understand that we are all connected and that there is not one ultimate power but shared universal energy that transcends any telescope or satellite.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes These things I would discuss only with a scientist or Doctor.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes People want to be around me more. Things just seem to go my way.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I felt a need to meditate. Upon doing so, I was able to hear voices and see things. Some might call them spirits or unearthly beings. I have the ability to see auras. I sense other people's pain and am able to heal with touch. For a while, I had brief spurts of telekinesis.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? If I could, I would go again. It feels as if you are on your way to the best place known.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took me about four years.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Words cannot describe all things.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Words cannot describe all things.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Don't be afraid and don't chase it. We will all get there.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Everything was wonderful, I see no need to chase your own tail, you will all find out soon enough.