It was as if I was part of the tides of the ocean. It was like being swept back into the sea, but in slow motion. But it wasn't the sea, it was like a tunnel, and in just a few seconds a great weight fell from me. I was free - my soul was almost instantly engulfed in the most beautiful bluish-white light. My aunt and Mary Magdalene greeted me. They spoke to me, yet they had no mouths to speak, I just knew what they were saying. It was the most wonderful, loving, peaceful feeling I have ever felt. I had so many regrets that I spoke to my aunt, because I had neglected her so badly - and yet she forgave me and told me how much she loved me. In the next instant, Jesus Christ himself reached down and picked me up. It was so much like the feeling I had felt when I was oh so small and so scared of a fire truck and my daddy had picked me up. I held him so close around his neck. I wanted to do the same, yet I felt so undeserving.
As Jesus held me, I looked into his eyes - I will never forget how wonderful and awesome his eyes were! The first thing I said to him was, 'Do you hate me because I am a drug addict?' I will never forget what He said to me, 'NO. I only want you to know that I love you.' There were other things said, then he started to set me down, and I said, 'Please don't leave me.' HE said, 'I will never give you more than you can handle.' Then I was back in my body.
I remember, I jumped out of bed, I felt so ALIVE. The only thing was I hurt around the top of my head. I felt like I had been hanging. I Hurt in my palms, under my heart, in my feet - I knew then, that I had been washed in the Blood Of Christ, my Savior. He was right, I went through the crucifixion, there was nothing in this world I couldn't handle. HE had already done that for us ALL.
Date NDE Occurred: 1990
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Criminal attack Other Poisoned by boyfriend
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was talking with Christ.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was talking with Christ.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There is no way to describe what I saw. I just know I feel so blessed to have been given this experience.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Very fast - like a weight lifted from me. A blue-white tunnel - four or five seconds.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My aunt. That I was so very much loved, and not to feel guilty.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bluish-white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness, contentment, fulfillment.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know I knew them there, but when I came back, I am unable to share them or really remember them. All I know is that I did when I was there, have knowledge of it.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When my aunt said she forgave me for not coming to see her before she died, and when Christ said he loved me even though I was a drug addict.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it within just a few hours.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It is 2009 and it is like the experience happened to be seconds ago.
I will never forget it. It has changed my life. I get goose bumps every time I tell the story -every time I even think of it. My life will never be the same!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Same as I said above - it is with me always.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I just want everyone to know that there is something so wonderful and so much better than what we experience in our flesh - a life so wonderful, so full of love - a spirit everlasting!