Experience Description

A so called 'spiritual questing' martial artist and craze-seeking friend manipulated pressure to different places on face and neck. I had to breathe deeply and hold repeatedly. Strangulation took place. I remember falling to the floor. I think I peed slightly. Thankfully I hadn't eaten! No sexual activity took place.

I left my body with a strange fizzing electrical sensation into light and then into a star filled black void that was full of awareness and life's precious lessons. I can remember thinking this sensation is not real and that my life was being pulled away but I wasn't scared just amazed. I then just went with it. I knew I wouldn't be returning but that didn't scare me. I calmly looked back at my family and said goodbye. I think I remember hearing from the deceased and wisdom from somewhere higher. A lot of learning went on during this time but unfortunately, now the lessons have been forgotten.

I felt at the time that everything was so clear and so important to remember. I then heard human voices and felt disappointed. 'My God she's back.' 'You went too far man!' After that, I was told that it was so incredible - I was dead for a long while. It was clear that these people had all undergone the experience but never had been 'out' for the length of time I was. It was obvious they had trouble in bringing me back. There was relief as well as some kind of praise for me. Whether it was my life's energy being sucked out of me. But if felt like there was more to it after the tingling energy had gone and I was out in space with clarity.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1995

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes experimental strangulation and pressure points provocation Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function).

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Everything was pure clarity and deeper messages. I was able to communicate and listen at a higher level. You know lots of things at the same time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After going through a vacuum procedure out into space. A part of it I think I can remember being carried by an aware horse and holding the mane. Going at great speeds.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything just so different no way to clearly describe in English.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Colors, depths, transparencies, field of vision, like going through the cosmos.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Clarity of sound and understanding. Hearing from beyond and above. My own voice having a knowing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Pulled up through a tunnel of bright fuzziness into an expanse of darkness stars and awareness.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I know that I met someone wise and we talked clearly for a long while but now I have forgotten.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Many different.

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I think mostly was absolutely amazing, have a feint recollection of viewing a place not quite so. But not built like a heaven or hell.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? New emotions that don't relate quite.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control But I remember looking back at my family and saying I'll be alright and knowing they would.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The boundary I suppose could be at the end of the upward spiraling lit tunnel into the expanse.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal None

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes As regards to religion I am not sure whom or what it was I was seeing and talking with.

What is your religion now? Liberal searching or awaiting answer.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes As regards to religion I am not sure whom or what it was I was seeing and talking with.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes My knowledge has been forgotten. I can remember being told not to forget something very crucial to 'life', it was made again by this person, and yep I forgot it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm not certain how.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The sensation, the void, the slipping away and beyond. Nothing about it felt like anything I had felt before. The energy took on a different vibration. Like being sucked through a vacuum into a fuzzy but not scared place. There was clarity, messages. Most of which evaporated when bought back. The crazy group I had encountered said I had been 'out' for the longest they had known anybody to be and were relieved I suppose that they didn't have to bury my body. It took ages to feel like my feet were placed on the earth again.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Have always felt like I came back from a previous time to get somebody. Felt this like a knowing since I was a baby.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain Not in this detail. Nobody would believe it anyway.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain No but I had found myself attached like a lizard to the ceiling and looking down at myself sleeping. I had the feeling of being able to go out but thought awareness dropped me to my body which was waking.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Like I had been involved in the most strange experience that couldn't possibly be relayed to anyone else due to enormity of difference in space, time, clarity, emotion.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. At the time it felt more 'real' and that it is this life that is the fake.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Only that this account cannot possibly have the depth and meaning that it had at the time. I haven't the use of language enough to describe.