Experience Description

The first time: I was a little over four years old at the time. I remember being in an ambulance which was taking me to a hospital in another city when, all of a sudden, I found myself way, way up high watching the ambulance on the road. I could see the landscape in minute detail and the colors were quite intense. I could see very far all the way around, but at the same time I was focusing on the winding road, I remember this very well. Many years after, I was on a bus, which followed the same route. I decided to walk, I had this strange feeling that I should not have been in that place at all.

The second time: I was with my uncle, aunt and two cousins when I decided to go swimming in the river.

I wanted to show off that I was a good swimmer but the river undercurrent took me away to this drop off near the foot of a bridge. They told me later that a professional swimmer who happened to be there on vacation at his grandparents' got me out of the water but that I did not look scared at all. What I did not tell them was that I had panicked and struggled for a several minutes before I decided to completely give up. When I did give up, the water disappeared and all around me there was this gentle light that did not hurt my eyes, and I experienced a sense of total peace and calm. I remember thinking that if that was death it was fine with me. I would like to tell you that I had an unhappy childhood, with an alcoholic father and a mother who did not have much time for me, so being there in that place was a wonderful thing for me, indescribable.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: martie1976 si iulie1979

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Illness Other 'scarlatina 40grade temperature inec' This first time, the sickness, the second time I was drowning.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Uncertain, I had no such feeling.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Uncertain, I had no such feeling.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning In the first experience it looked to me like everything was going on in a slow motion. In the second experience, there was neither space nor time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The first time the dimension and the detail of the view I was seeing and the clarity. The second time, the strange light.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes In the second experience I felt this wonderful light all around me.

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? The first time, uncertainty. The second time, I felt secure.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The first time I could see myself from way up high while I was in the ambulance. The second time I experienced the interior calm and peace and the light.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The first time, nothing. In the second experience it was the feeling of complete calm.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real I was too young to remember how I felt.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real It is difficult to explain but I am certain these experiences had been real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? In my second experience, I'm sorry I did not stay there.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? It is so very difficult to explain what happened that I'm not so sure what kind of questions would be helpful.