Experience Description

I am an army brat and my parents were stationed in Germany. My father was away on a training mission and my mother was a stay-at-home parent. We lived in military housing, which was a apartment building. The neighbor across the hall had asked my mom to babysit her baby and she had dropped the baby and baby's diaper bag off at the apartment. Unbeknownst to my mother, the lady had poured two containers of orange-flavored baby aspirin into one container, and then put the container in a small brown paper sack and tucked into the diaper bag. When my mom was in the kitchen fixing a bottle for the baby, I sneaked into the diaper bag and found the container of hidden aspirin. I ate them all. Needless to say, later while watching cartoons, my eyes rolled back and I went into convulsions. My mother screamed for help and I was transported to the hospital. The lady with the baby saw that the aspirin was missing. She contacted the hospital to inform them of our arrival and about the missing aspirin. Too much time had passed and the aspirin was already in my bloodstream. By the time we made it to the hospital, I was limp and lifeless in my mother's arms.

The medical personal rushed me into a room where they started trying to revive me. As they worked on me, I left my body and was watching from above. I could see and hear everything, but could not feel what they were doing to the body below. I can remember vividly watching with curiosity and interest. While watching the doctors and nurses working on the body below, I also remember being able to watch what was happening at the same time in the room they had taken my mom. I could feel my mother's hysteria and distraught, as if her emotions were my own. I remember being overwhelmed with feelings of intense love for my mother. I had memories of a past life that I had shared before this one that involved both my mother and my sister.

I also experienced a knowing of my mother's future through two separate scenarios: One if I decided to leave this life, and one if I decided to stay. The knowing felt like a gift being given and even though I had a 3-year-old mentality I was able to receive this information as if I was a mature person. I cannot relate how much time passed, but I remember making a decision. Once I did this, I felt myself pulled back into the body I had been watching below me.

Immediately, I felt everything being done to me. Because this happened when I was 3 all the details other than the ones described is all I can remember.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1963

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Drug or medication overdose. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) The event occurred due to an overdose of baby aspirin (two fatal doses) a combination of two bottles that had been combined into one large container.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Everything that was occurring in the location my body was and also the location where they had taken my mom I witnessed and heard. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I answered this question as more because of the knowledge, knowing, and understanding I received during this experience.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I am unsure how to interpret this question but I would have to say throughout my experience, I felt alert to all that was going on. My highest level of physical consciousness if I were to take this question literally would be when I returned to my body. My experience was vivid.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I felt almost as if I split into two when I left my body because I was able to witness two locations at the same time but can remember each in it's own distinct way.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Since the occurrence happened when I was 3, I really can't answer this question other than saying I don't remember a difference.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear things said and I could hear things thought. That's the only way I can explain it.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain If i did I do not remember it.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I could feel the presence of something but do not remember any more than that.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an Unearthly light? Uncertain

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. While I was outside my body I felt like I was in a different dimension but still connected to the dimension I was witnessing.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt the emotions mostly of my mother's distraught and also of her motherly love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I had a more mature understanding of things past, present, and future.

The experience included: Life Review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events I became aware of other past lives.

The experience included: Future Visions

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. I was shown that I would experience other trauma and tragedies, but also that there was a reason I would have to overcome and learn from these experiences. I was also shown times of accomplishment, purpose, and that there is a reason for everything.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. My decision was based on emotions and a purpose of life that I witnessed and had an immense sense of knowing about. I felt a sense of importance and was reminded that I would recognize it once it occurred in the future.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths At 3 years old I had no religious beliefs.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in alternative spiritualism to include reincarnation as a relevant factor in my life.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths My belief system is more metaphysical and spiritual based.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was 3 so I had no preconceived notions of life.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I had a sense of knowing whether or not that came from a voice I cannot say. I do feel like I was comforted and advised by someone more all knowing than myself.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I got to review certain important aspects of a past life that I shared with some of my other loved ones. I reviewed the death of my mother in the past life we shared before this life, that I personally was present with her when she died in that life.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Being separated from my body and being able to witness all that was happening in multiple locations to me is a mystical connection.

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I can say from my experience I had a knowing that my mother's future would have been greatly impacted by my demise. My sense of purpose was that my life was necessary for hers. I also had a knowing that I had an additional purpose in my future that impacted someone else's life.

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I received the knowing that each of us are of importance and that we all become aware of our purpose at different moments in our life. That life itself is a school to learn from, with each life we live we evolve.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I was shown and had a knowing of past life plus future life which for me validated a continuation of life whether earthly or as energy in a different realm as we wait for the next life.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes That all of life's challenges have been chosen for a reason and each event teaches us something we need to learn in order to evolve to the next lesson/life. For example, compassion is learned through life's hardships and/or difficulties.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I believe love was the emotion that assisted me in making my decision to stay and live this life.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I have a different way of viewing things, I have a great empathy for others and situations, I feel like I use a part of my brain that was stimulated during my experience that I may not have used otherwise. I believe in reincarnation and past lives. And I have psychic abilities, along with paranormal experiences that developed after the experience.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Same as question 56.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Because of my age the event was very traumatic compared to any experience up to that date.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have clairvoyant abilities, see spirits, and have what I describe as a hitchhiker attachment I feel came back with me to this life when I was out of my body in the other dimension.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes I chose to stay here in this life because of my mom and my mom confirmed that she also did the same for me when she had a near death experience before she passed 3 years later.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my family and they were accepting of it. My mother and my sister both changed their spiritual outlook and beliefs more like my own were.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Throughout my life my experience has always been a contributing factor to how I live my life.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes When I turned 15, because of the overdose, I suffered another near death experience as a result of prior amage done to my kidneys and urinary tract.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Not really. It pretty much covers it all.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No. I do feel some of the questions were too repetitive and because of this it took quite some time to complete the questionnaire.