Experience Description

My life at that time was in ruins: abused almost by everyone I knew; no self-respect, not married and pregnant at eighteen.

I went to the hospital for an abortion. Abortion was considered to be a simple procedure, so the vitals were not monitored. After the anesthetic was introduced to my body and I lost my consciousness, I started to feel the pain. It seemed like forever. Then the pain start to subside and at the same time I have noticed the motion. I was moving through a narrow and somewhat dark hallway. I had mixed feelings at that moment: I was glad that the pain was going away; and fear of what was coming. The tunnel I traveled was rather curvy.

The further I went, the faster I went, until I saw the light. The light was ultra-white and bright. It made my fear go away. At some point, I entered the light. I saw myself from above. Most importantly, I knew what had happened; it seemed I knew everything. In a profound way, I had no body weight, no emotional attachments, only the ultimate Peace. I had no questions, no wonders, NO FEARS, no regrets; I was home.

Meanwhile, I was being transferred to the recovery room that I shared with nineteen others girls. I was following my body to the room. Nurses were leaving the room. When one of them had stopped, turned around, he came to my bed and took my hand (I believe, he checked my pulse), than he called others.

Then there was darkness. Next thing I know, I am conscious with an IV in my arm.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1990

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) My heart stopped.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal After going through the light.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After going through the light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear, but I knew what was going on.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Long, narrow, dark, curvy.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I've seen it at the end of the tunnel.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? None.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal n/a

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Now I believe in infinity.

What is your religion now? Liberal spiritual

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Now I believe in infinity.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes During the experience I knew it all.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I was painless, fearless and at peace.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes First time shared it with my sister ten years later. I don't think she believed me. It made me think, it is very personal experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real There is no way anybody can imaging or dreaming this. I knew it happened when I first opened my eyes. I was angry that they revived me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Somewhat meditation.