I was suffering from a herniated disc and was waiting for surgery.
That night, I woke up to an intense, sharp pain that was spreading all over my body. It was unbearable. I was going from the top of my skull down to the tips of my toes and fingers. My breathing wasn't normal. All of a sudden, I felt lighter and I realized I was looking down at my husband, who was sleeping on the bed in the bedroom. I observed all the details in the bedroom, including what position my husband was sleeping in.
I felt myself leaving, as if I were being sucked in towards a tunnel that was illuminated with a bright yellow light (like the one you can see on a summer morning while watching a sunrise). I was floating. I felt good - and mainly I wasn't feeling pain anymore - it was all gone. I rested while I was floating, I felt marvelously great. I couldn't see myself floating in the light (although I could feel it happening,) but I understood it to be my Self. When I looked down, I saw my husband sleeping and I saw my body beside him. Seeing this, suddenly I panicked and didn't want to be sucked into the tunnel. I started screaming that my two children, including my six months old baby, needed me. I fought while I was floating and felt divided between wanting to stay down on Earth and wanting to go up into the tunnel. I was upset with the situation. A voice told me I should go back and take care of my family, that I still had many things to accomplish and learn - that things would be different now. I would have a new strength that would be invincible. I had a life-review and witnessed all the important moments of my life.
Then, I came back down. I was back in my cold body and once again could feel pain. I didn't want to wake up my husband. With a superhuman effort, I proceeded to quietly get up and leave the bedroom. My feet brushed the floor, my body was freezing cold and I was sweating warm beads of sweat. I walked, shaking. Then, little by little, my body warmed up; I could feel the cold floor under my feet and my sweat was cold. I analyzed what had just happened to me and could sense that, indeed, I had acquired an inner strength that would allow me to live a morally independent life.
Date NDE Occurred: 26 JANVIER 1988
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Illness 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness The whole time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
The way we view space and time didn't exist.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was more intense, more precise, and clearer.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was a luminous tunnel, filled with happiness.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I didn't meet them, but I heard them - many voices at the same time.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw a very strong yellow light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? One emotion I felt was that I had found a place I had forgotten. I had the impression of being back 'at home' - but it just wasn't the right time to go there. The mixed emotions upon meeting souls I knew but who had to stay in the tunnel. (I would have had to go forward to meet them.) I felt emotions of warmth, happiness and wellbeing.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I didn't learn anything from seeing my past. However, a voice was telling me to stay on Earth, since I still had experiences that, even though they would be difficult to go through, would allow me to learn and grow. It was telling me I hadn't accomplished all I had to do on Earth. It was telling me that I'd be facing difficulties alone, but that this newfound strength would stay with me for the rest of my life.
I can acknowledge that, indeed, all of that has been true since the time of my experience.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I had the feeling I was back to where I had been before being born.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Futile, useless and meaningless relationships now seem like a waste of time to me. My experience separates me from many other people, and in general, I am more isolated because of it.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was hard to describe the light, the emotions, the duration of the experience, and the intense feeling of wellbeing.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I already knew how to read the future using cards. Since January 26, 1988, I feel in constant contact with the world beyond us - protected, guided and helped by angels. My sensory condition is more developed.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talked about it right away and still talk about it when the opportunity arises. I describe it to people as an ordinary experience that they will have someday, too, to try to help them feel better.
Since then, people from my professional and family circle confide in me without my asking them anything. I listen and give them advice as best as I can. My goal is to guide them.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a book, by Raymond Moody, I think. It helped me to remain calm, free of panic, and to stay focused during the experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I knew right away that the experience was definitely real. I knew I wasn't dreaming, since from above, I saw things exactly the way they actually had been in the bedroom. Also, the fact that I was absolutely pain-free while I was out of my body, and then the feelings in my frozen stiff body when I came back, also contribute to my being sure that the experience was real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see the experience as definitely real.
Since then, I have done some research about this subject. What I went through confirms this reality.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? This experience changed my life. It was a second birth.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ask if this experience led later on to feelings of isolation from friends and family.