I was in surgery for the excision of meningioma. Six hours. While going under, I was aware that Jesus Christ came into the room. I was taken from my body and observed up to the point of doctors beginning to open my skull. Communication was telepathic. They wanted to take me to a Golden Mountain that was illuminated with white and gold light. There I was greeted by my family who had passed on. There was such joy and remarkable peace. They said 'Do not be afraid.' Messengers were needed to let people know that death is not fearful. People had forgotten. They gave me instructions in how to work with the gifts we are given to assist one another. The illumination was so magnificent. Moving around was so easy in this body. The whole environment felt and appeared as though the body or consciousness of Christ was alive in each person making up a whole that was expanding beyond the universe. Love was so peacefully exuding from within each presence. Some of the figures were angelic with wings.
The spiral light filled luminous tunnel through which I had passed led to this incredible place. I wanted to stay with them. We went through a life review and I was at peace with choices that had been made. I was aware that I had felt bad about some events in the physical, and saw things from an illuminated perspective, which filled me with peace. There were other things that were discussed which I am not recalling right now. At one point, they said that I could stay. I was so at peace with dying in the physical. I was given the choice and was ready to say, 'Yes.' Then I remembered that I was the conservator for my aunt's care. With that - I returned.
Date NDE Occurred: 'November 12, 1987'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related Other: Sometime during 6 hour surgery to excise brain tumor.
Sometime during the surgery, I was given a choice. What was actually occurring during the surgery I do not know.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I recall, the beginning and middle and end. The in-between seems less clear.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Recall an awareness of the earthly plane. Though the activities in the realms visited was as though there was an important connection between all.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was a transparency of objects. Probably my use of the word luminous. Objects were not solid. The ability to see and move through objects was effortless.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Clear telepathic communication. The clarity of words used and sounds were like music.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel was luminous and spiral shaped.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Christ, St. Mary, Buddhist Monks and Angels, Native American saints (was aware of some dancing movement). They said they are always with me and looking out after me on my journey, whether I'm in the physical body or not. I was shown method of healing light. We are all connected was a message.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Luminous colors, White and Gold, and rainbow colors.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Flying (so to speak) to other locations and dimensions.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, joy, peacefulness as though I had gone home.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control That my life here was important and that I am deeply loved. I am happiest in this life when serving in some capacity. Spiritual. Do not be distracted by how things appear, pray and ask for help and we will guide you. Help communicate what we have shown you, just by being. Trust your inner voice and do not be distracted or disheartened by appearances.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Accuracy is higher. Confirmation imperative to determine.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Episcopalian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes More open and luminous. I am less rigid in structure and belief.
What is your religion now? Liberal Episcopalian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More open and luminous. I am less rigid in structure and belief.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That everything in this universe is in accordance to Divine plan. Growing, learning, evolving. We will one day all be living this kind of harmony and peace-joy and love.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am more open to friends who are on a spiritual path. Kindness, gentleness and loving acceptance are so very meaningful.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Psychic and healing. Learned that not all choose to be healed. The journey or experience of disease can take them within to other levels of consciousness. It's important to respect each journey.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When I regained consciousness in the intensive care unit, the warmth in knowing I was loved and valuable really stayed with me. No matter what the outer world is saying, we are so loved and valuable.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shorty after the surgery. At first, some people tried to put me on a pedestal and seemed to expect things. Some became afraid. Some tried to disprove what I'd said. I became more cautious in what I relayed and tried to appear 'normal'. It has been a process of allowing what is to unfold as needed. I seem to be cautious of too much attention directed my way.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It felt so real though I knew caution in relaying this experience was important. People would be skeptical and I needed to accept this too.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have waivered to feeling it was but a dream. Then something occurs that brings back different aspects and knowledge that I would not have known otherwise.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes None of the above. Though some aspects have reoccurred.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Accepting these experiences and loving oneself even when others may doubt you.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? How did this experience translate to your return to the physical? How did you feel on the return?