I remember having a hard time breathing, like there was a heavy weight on my chest. But I was sleepy, and since I thought that breathing was automatic and could not possibly stop if I fell asleep, I went ahead and fell asleep. I did stop breathing.
I was immediately aware that I was in a different place, in a room somewhere, lying all alone on a stone floor or level slab, and very, very comfortable. It didn't hurt my back to lie flat without a pillow under my knees, like I usually have to do. Anyway, I was lying on this slab, with my hands crossed over my chest like an Egyptian. All around me was dark, but I was bathed in the bright light of a spotlight. The room was the perfect temperature, and I felt no pain whatsoever. I was so comfortable, I didn't want to leave.
I could hear someone calling my name from far away, and a face or two would appear when I surfaced, but then they would be gone again. I later found out that the faces were the nurses trying to revive me, shouting my name and doing the sternum rub on me. I didn't want to come back. I just wanted to stay there, where there was no pain or sadness.
Of course, they did revive me, and I was covered with bruises from their trying physical pain to bring me back.
Date NDE Occurred: August 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I was in the hospital and had just come out of surgery. They over sedated me, and I stopped breathing.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I am not sure - I felt alert during the whole thing - I think.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a spotlight, coming from above me, bathing me in this light. The rest of the room was in darkness.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I believe that I was reviewing a past life experience I had in Epypt
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Incredible peace and happiness, like I used to feel as a child: safe, pain-free and happy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Pagan
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I now firmly believe in reincarnation, and lean toward a Buddhist view of life and death.
What is your religion now? Liberal Pagan
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now firmly believe in reincarnation, and lean toward a Buddhist view of life and death.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I was lying with my hands crossed over my chest like an Egyptian Mummy.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I saw this experience as 'definitely real' right from the start.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see the experience as 'definitely real.' It *was* real, and I always hold that feeling of happiness and peace close to my heart. I call up that feeling of peace during hard times, when I need something to comfort me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.