I was in the hospital lying on a table in a surgical room waiting for a procedure to have my bladder examined having suffered numerous urinary tract infections over the past two years. I was dressed only in a gown and had my legs in stirrups, which was unbelievable traumatic for a little girl. A nurse had just chased an orderly out of the room who had no business being there and was clearly staring at me before he was removed from the room. I felt violated and helpless.
Then the urologist came in with the anesthesiologist and I knew I was going to be 'gassed' and put to sleep. Suddenly, it was just more than I could bear and I panicked in a way I could not believe possible - it was just so intense and I struggled to fight my way off the table.
The next thing I knew, I was being pulled through a white tunnel with bells clanging all around me. I remember thinking I had never heard such a sound before and wondered if this was what it was like to be put to sleep. Suddenly, a being appeared before me - a kind young man about in his teens. He was dressed like a wizard. I believe it was my deceased brother who would have been six years older than me, if he had lived. I never knew him as I was born ten months after he died. I felt instantly at ease with him and felt love and peace radiating from his presence. He said 'come on, I am taking you with me for a while as you are very afraid.' He took my hand and the next thing I knew we were in outer space staring at the earth as it revolved. I remember seeing a cord coming from my body and reaching all the way to the earth. He remarked how beautiful the earth was and asked me if I felt better and then suddenly he said, 'You must go back now.' I awoke vomiting into a pan.
What is remarkable about this is that I saw the earth long before we had space travel and I never saw the earth that way again until the first shots were broadcast on television when the moon walk occurred.
Date NDE Occurred: 1960
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related Other Intense fear and panic.. I was under anesthesia so I can't be sure if I was having a reaction.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I could see the atmosphere around the earth and watched the clouds swirling around the seas and continents. I could see the cord attaching me to earth extend all the way back to the planet.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was in outer space holding hands with the spiritual being.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I could see the atmosphere around the earth and watched the clouds swirling around the seas and continents. I could see the cord attaching me to earth extend all the way back to the planet.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I will never forget the intense clanging of the bells.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was a white and filmy tunnel and I felt slightly claustrophobic for an instant.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes See above narrative.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I didn't see a light but I felt like I passed into lightness. It is so hard to describe and I was only ten.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, wonderment, love, and peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Unwavering faith in life after death.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Unwavering faith in life after death.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That there is so much more than we know beyond our physical limitations.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I know there is so much more to 'being' than just what we know of on earth in our physical bodies. I try to live my life in a more meaningful way and desire to make a positive difference before I die.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes No one I knew had ever had an experience like mine or had discussed it. So, I didn't have any context into which to put what I saw and heard. I didn't know or understand what happened except that it was exactly what I needed at the time it was happening.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I have always felt that my deceased brother has been watching over me my entire life. The being I was with just felt like the comforting presence I have always sensed around me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my mother on the way home from the hospital. She replied that I had a dream. Years later, she confessed she believed me at the time but didn't want to confuse me. Mother had had her own NDE when she was pregnant with me and undergoing anesthesia for a dental experience. She said she flew out of her body into a corner of the room and watched the dentist panic for an instant. My husband refuses to believe me and thinks I shouldn't talk about this for fear people will think I am 'nuts.' Deep down, I think he really does believe me but my experience is at odds with his belief that there is nothing after death. I really don't talk about this and I hesitated for a long time before deciding to share my experience on-line.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was so long ago, I can't really remember. I think I was just so confused I didn't want to think about it for a while.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. In the 1970s, I first came across literature describing NDE and when I read about tunnels and bells, I cannot begin to express how excited I got. It just confirmed my experience in a way I cannot describe. To read narratives from strangers articulating what I felt and saw prior to being in space was very validating.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No