It was an unbearable pain, level 12/10. I sat on passenger seat with a water ring below my bums to somewhat lower the pain. I was cold and all my body shook. An extreme weariness overwhelmed me, something I had never known, even at illness times. I closed my eyes to try to sleep and at a moment, I felt I was going somewhere else.
I saw myself in a heavenly landscape, there was clay ground, a beautiful blue sky, grass, slight and tepid breeze, and there was an olive tree next to me. My grandfather, dead since 1988, was sitting there, quietly playing the lute. He told me, sit down there dear Steph, you'll see we're alright there. I asked him where we were, he answered that I knew it, I was in Heaven but I should not worry. I felt huge pleasure emotion pervade me, I felt happy and free and about to cry for joy. I had tears in my eyes for so much beauty and for seeing my grandfather. Then, deceased people came to visit me and they called my name, saying that I should come because you felt good there and I belonged there. I belonged among them; they outstretched their arms towards me. I saw dozens of dead family members. There were other people I did not know, but who also outstretched their arms to me. I felt like I would cry for joy, saying to myself that death was so beautiful. I wanted to die now, driven by joy and happiness. Pain had disappeared; I felt no pain at all then.
I stammered out to my girlfriend, they are all there. She woke me up then, but it was hard for me to get out from sleepiness.
Date NDE Occurred: 28/10/2007
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain IllnessSurgery-related Abcès de la marge anale avec fièvre 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
I had a lot of fever and immense unbearable pain in my left bum. On my arrival to hospital, the nurses told me that after forty-eight hours without surgery, I could have died from blood poisoning.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was alert when I saw my grandfather sitting below the olive tree. I was alert and conscious at a very high level.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Each image was as if it were everlasting but passed swiftly. Weird and indescribable feeling.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were dead people I knew or not. They told me to come with them because you are all right there and it was time for me if I wanted to. Our fate is written and you have to accept death.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Oui j'ai visité le paradis, c'était un paysage avec de la terre battue, un ciel bleu, un vent tiède et un olivier à côté de moi. Le temps et l'atmosphère était délicieux et donnait envie d'y rester.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I intensely felt like I would cry for joy and freedom. I wanted to be with the dead people. I wanted to feel Heaven around me, sun, warmth, tepid wind, listen to the music my grandfather played.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate chrétien on
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate croyant en une vie après la vie
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Earthly world is unimportant, what matters is to do good for others. Materialism is nothing, you have to live happy, do good and not be attached to things but to people. Live for the happiness of being alive, letting your fate give you guidance.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I saw my grandfather moved me a lot because he hugely mattered to me, and I'm sure he's my Guardian Angel because he told me so before he died. He virtually raised me as a child. He was a Spaniard; he fought the 39/45 war and fled Spain to join the Republican Army.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Apparently, it just lasted a few minutes, but for me it lasted hours. They believed me and were surprised, but they understood that because of this message, my girlfriend drove me to the hospital, until then she indeed hesitated to drive me to the hospital.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a lot of NDEs, and I lived quite many things similar to the accounts I read.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I believe it was real because I saw and heard him like he talked to me when alive.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It's the feeling I got from it that makes me say the experience was real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Death does not scare me anymore, because I know now that death is beautiful and you must accept it as obviousness.