I just recall being drawn towards a big bright light to the point where I was in the light, only to have it communicated (somehow) that it was time to leave and back I came. The coming back part was the most impressionable and requires very little digging into the memory, as it seems suspended somewhere time. As for an 'out of body experience' I don't think I knew what a body was (laughs). However, one thing I do remember is that at no stage did I feel grounded during the experience. Another quirky thing which followed was an assumption that I'd be able to look directly at the sun with no problems (laughs).
Date NDE Occurred: 6/25/1985
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Fetal complications. Life threatening event, but not clinical death Fetal distress.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Well it's strange because yes I seemed extremely lucid but on the other hand I don't remember actually thinking about what I was experiencing at the time. People use the word 'timeless' I can relate to that.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My alertness seemed to peak when I was coming back (reasonably clear).
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning The experience played out without any sense of time, timeless.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I know the light I encountered was verging on being blinding.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I don't remember hearing anything during the experience.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I don't remember coming into contact with anyone/thing else, but I remember a grand presence which seemed to transcend anything (or anybody's) presence I've felt since.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light I saw was all around me, it was like I was in the light the whole time.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Yes, the light that surrounded me was as good as it gets!
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? An emotion which is seldom felt, occasionally I'll get a similar feeling when I look at the night sky or hear a particularly nice piece of music. But like I said earlier I didn't do much thinking at the time of the experience so it was more of an essence or a presence which was felt.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future This is a strange one, I vaguely remember holding a soft toy in my hands, which I would later collect at a hospital. That being said, I did have a general anesthetic when I collected the toy and was put to sleep under a big light. But I can't see how that would have given me a floating sensation (even with the use of premeds) and also remain so coherent lifelong, plus I've always just known this experience was the first thing that ever happened to me, strange as!
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Hadn't formed one.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I was baptized in the catholic church however because of my experience my belief system isn't that of a strict catholic.
What is your religion now? Moderate Christian, leaning toward Gnosticism.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I was baptized in the catholic church however because of my experience my belief system isn't that of a strict catholic.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Yeah the light was teaching me something, something out of earshot, however it may have corroborated unbeknownst to me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I was always a pleasant but not overly sociable child, to the point where my parents suspected I may had autism.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is rather difficult to express in words, it's one of the few glimpses I've had of my higher self.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Perhaps the toy thing.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the stateliness of whatever it was that lay behind that light, I'm sure it was God.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The first people I told were my mum and grandmother, I would have been about twelve. It was after hearing about other near death cases that a bell rung and I thought, 'Hey! That sounds familiar. I had an encounter with a big bright light.' And mum then said, 'Well you did suffer fetal distress.' I thought, 'Yes, yes! It was the first thing that ever happened to me.' My experience was well on its way to being validated when I started reading detailed accounts from other people speaking of the light, and the love it radiated. My family thinks the exposure to all these other accounts speaking of intense love etc. may have caused me (at the very least) to embellish the experience, if not present a new and improved version of it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No Hardly (laughs).
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. It's been in my psyche all along, but I didn't really give it much thought when I was a youngster. I cherished it (whatever it may have been) but just thought, oh yeah. For all I knew everybody could've experienced this: 'A tree is judged by its fruit. A bad tree cannot bear good fruit. Nor can a good tree bear bad fruit. The fruit of the Holy Spirit is love, joy, peace, etc.' I know that the light radiated goodness through and through.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. The only thing that puts any doubt into my mind is that possibility Satan can simulate the love of God and lure people into deception (that's what people say anyway). So, yeah, I was in two minds about it for a while there but was relieved to read this.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No The only medication that ever could reproduce it would be one that improved my memory, (not likely).
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nope, I think most of it has been covered.