Experience Description

Actually my suicide caused the event; I ate a lot of sleeping drugs.

The sky was so red, it was not the blood red, and it was very spectacular! There were a lot of red clouds, the land was red too, so I went ahead and I came to a red river, the water was so beautiful and red, so far I feel relaxed and happy, a particular emotional experience! Firstly, I saw a person who I didn't know at all killed in the river. (After I told the story to my grandfather, he said his grandfather was killed in a similar place, and all of the details were almost the same! I was surprised.) There was a ferry and a boatman there. I asked if he would take me across the river. He hesitated for a while and eventually granted my request. When I got into the boat, I felt very happy, special feelings coming out. When I landed on the opposite bank there was what looked like a garden, there were many houses in there. I went to an inn because I felt a little bit tired. They wanted different money and I hadn't any such money. I also met a deceased person; my grandfather's mother was living there! She treated me very nicely.

Another interesting thing is when I was awake; others told me sometimes I can repeat all of the words in some books.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2002-8-9

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Suicide.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal My consciousness is very clear.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My consciousness is very clear.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. A lot of red things.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My normal dream I can't dialogue with a person, in there I can talk with person! And I can hear, they tell me a story.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The boatman, he told me a story about further and past, my grandfather's mother.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Beautiful inns and houses

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happy, relaxed, peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I trust there is a world beyond the real world.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No