I was bleeding internally so was immediately taken to surgery. I would have died for sure without surgery, or at least that is what everybody thought. It is like a miracle of odds that I survived and am doing very well today. I distinctly remember feeling like I was being lifted. It was like I was in a transparent elevator moving towards a soothing light that did not even hurt my eyes. I saw planets unlike earth with just dust and rocks. It reminded me of mars or something like that. I was going up at a very fast speed and feeling very good at the time. Then suddenly it hit me that I was dying. I knew that I didn't want to die so I prayed really hard to go back to my mom. I prayed to an entity whose presence I felt high above. I am not religious, but I felt somebody for sure towards whom I was being elevated. Then I got depressed and started praying harder and begging to be sent back to my mom because I didn't want to die. Suddenly, I dropped down into my body and became conscious. I was flooded with immense pain in the region where I had the surgery. I woke up after several hours but clearly remembered what I went through. I couldn't speak for a few days as I had tubes in my mouth. When I could talk, I asked my nurse what happened to me in the operation theater. She told me that my heartbeat had stopped twice and I had died for a good amount of time. That is when I knew that what I felt was real.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/08/2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function).
I coded twice. I was undergoing 7th major surgery within a month's time.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I felt people moving around when the experience was coming to a close.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal It was more lucid and very clear at the same time. It was not like the high from drugs but just unexplainable. It was very pure, bright, clean, and soothing.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Towards the end when I started begging and praying to stay alive.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like being in a normal world and being in a fluid, but still breathing.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I couldn't hear anybody or anyone else during the experience.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was more like a transparent elevator or just me being lifted up and up.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was lifted into space and could see the terrain of other planets.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I actually felt every feeling I could.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated not a religious person. just believed in a higher power.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have become more confused about my spiritual side. I was never and still am not religious.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify When I asked to be sent back to mom, the voice asked 'Why?' and I answered. But the voice did not come from just outside of me. It was everywhere.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain i dont know but it was somebody or something
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes i was going up to something os someone which felt to be very very huge and powerful
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? I am uncertain if an afterlife exists Yes it felt like that.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I greatly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes i felt as if life is hard and when i asked to be sent back, it felt as if i am chosing pain over peace
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes i cried begged to be sent back to my mom.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? I get a lot of sleep paralysis. Whether it is because of my surgical trauma or something else, I am not sure. I get a lot of sleep paralysis. Whether it is because of my surgical trauma or something else, I am not sure.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I believe more in death and fear it more. So it does affect me in a lot of ways
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I really can’t explain. It was like a dream yet real.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my family. They told me they are thankful to God for sending me back.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know it happened. It was way too real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes My night paralysis often is somehow linked to this experience in a weird way.
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