I remember being surrounded in love, feeling my husband loving me all over. I felt as though I was on another level of love. Then all of a sudden, I saw a big burst of light. The next thing I remember is seeing and hearing my husband say, 'Baby, come back to me!' I could see him but could not hear him. It was as though I was fighting with myself to stay. I kept feeling myself slip away. My husband grabbed me by the face and blew air into my mouth. It was like I could see everything, but I could not hear or feel anything. I saw the light bulb by my bed. I grabbed the light bulb saying, 'I see this light, it is supposed to be hot in my hand.' I grabbed the cover on the bed but could not feel it. My husband kept fading in and out, and I kept begging him to help me and not to leave me.I got hot all over. I remember jumping into my husband arms begging him to hit me harder so I could feel. But I felt nothing it was like everything was slipping away. I started praying to God, out loud, begging Him not to take me; that I had to stay, that what I have is real love. I named off my children, my mother, father, husband, grandmother all reasons why I could not die. I remember promising God that I give it all to Him. That I love Him and that He is my Savior but to please give me my life back; and He did. Thank You Father.
Date NDE Occurred: 11/23/2012
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Other: I was enjoying myself happy
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal In my everyday life I take smell, touch, hearing, and love for granted. During that level everything was taken away except love.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I would have to say, I was at my highest level, from almost the beginning to the end.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I cannot remember time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I try to see everything, but what I did not see was what is right in front of me; love.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could not hear. I could only hear my husband every now and then.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes There was a bright flash of light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm This happened before the bright light.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others It is time for me to give my life completely to God.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes It was feeling my life slip away before my eyes.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will The love I have for my family and that I knew I did not want to leave them. My kids are 8. My husband and I have only been together for almost 5 years. We lost both his mother and sister this year and I could not do this to my family.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I love God and Jesus even more.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian I have always believed in God nothing has ever changed that
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I knew love was powerful but I did not know how powerful until then
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes To love my family and God and to not take either for granted.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I felt love all over.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes God and Jesus
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Life is not a given its a gift
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I never felt love on such a high plain
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I knew God was here with me. I knew that only He and Jesus could save me
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No Give it to God.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Love
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes That life after death is beautiful and calm
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I greatly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Love...Trust God ..... Give it all to Him
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes its is the reason we are here
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I believe in Love and the Love of God.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I love my family even more.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's hard to explain what it's like to only have love in you.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events at time All I know is what was happening to me
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain The experience just happened today.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The most meaningful part was expressing my love for God.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No It was just a few minutes and may be something medical or stress related.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Just what I have seen on TV.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I realized that it does not take much for life to slip away.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know because I had to pray to God to please let me come back.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.
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