Experience Description

I remember walking and everything went black and next time I was being revived via CPR. It's funny, I remember it as if it happened yesterday. I was floating on my back and I was going feet first to this light at the end of this - not like a tunnel - more like clouds. And I had this sense that there were people/bodies there watching me go and I heard this incredible music being performed without instruments - it was vocal. And no words - just music done vocally. I didn't want to come back but I could hear my name being called. I had no sense of time, pain, anything. I felt wonderful and yet confused. But I knew I was going to a good place. This is all I care to say at this time about it.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: sometime in the late 1980's

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No I don't know for sure. I remember walking and everything went black and next time I was being revived via CPR. Other people said I wasn't breathing and when I woke up CPR was being performed.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure what you are asking me.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Well, I heard this music.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was more like clouds.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I could sense bodies/people by me.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright white light at the end.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I am not sure.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I treasure every encounter.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Hard to explain and not sure if anyone will believe me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I am not sure at this point.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I am more sure about life after death now. I feel it may have been a gift from God to experience this but I am not sure how to use this gift as of yet.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I didn't know what to do or if I should tell anyone, and then decided to keep it to myself.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I remember it in detail as if it happened yesterday.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am a bit afraid to divulge this information. I've kept this a secret for the longest time. I hope you don't think I am crazy.