I am not exactly sure when the NDE actually began. I suppose when I was 'watching myself' walking to work that this was the beginning. It seemed at this point simply an observational viewpoint, not an experience per se. I would have to say that the entire experience covers a period of several hours during which I was found, rescued, transported by ambulance, processed in the Emergency Room, and taken for a CT scan. Although I was aware of events going on around me, I was not part of them and did not see them. I was not 'involved' although it was my life that was hanging in the balance. During this time, I was clinically not responsive though blood pressure, oxygen levels, and heart rate were very stable. I even remember counting my pulse from the beeps on the monitor while drifting from place to place in my mind and from image to image. There are specific pictures I recall, but the words to explain them defy me. At the time I was not aware of the unusual nature of my wanderings, therefore I did not pay close enough attention to their details to be able to aptly describe. I have full memory of them, but no words to use to explain their qualities, if this makes any sense at all.
Date NDE Occurred: February 26, 2014
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Illness unsure. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening unsure
Over the past year I have been having severe head pain, difficulty with vision, balance and energy. All of this, as yet undiagnosed. I have always been an athlete so I do the best I can and try to push through, get to work, stay positive. On this day, I felt unbelievably weak after being mostly in bed the previous 3 days with severe pain. It was an important day at work, so I got myself ready and headed off, but in route I started to experience the strange sensation of watching myself, as if watching myself in a movie from up above. As my weakness increased, I seemed to move further away. Yet, I was still walking to work as though completely unaffected, just a normal day. Suddenly, I had a profound sense of urgency to find a bench and lie down. Shortly after that, I felt overwhelming dizziness, shortness of breath and exhaustion that made it impossible to keep my eyes open. I recall dialing 911. I tried to tell them where I was but gave only part of the information they needed.
It was calm and warm as I drifted up and watched myself lying so peacefully on the bench in the mall. There was no movement, no fight and finally no pain. As the fire crew arrived, I felt a strong hand on my shoulder, a hand that seemed also to have a warmth that radiated through my entire being and added visions of colors I have never experienced before, even though my eyes were closed. I know the emergency crew and fire crew were treating this as a life-threatening event but my vitals were found to be very stable, so I would say 'no' in hindsight.
The strangest thing was that I could hear the fire crew's attempts to rouse me, feel the oxygen mask being placed on my face, and I clearly felt the shaking of their hands when they realized I was not going to wake up or respond. I was observing all this partly from in my body and partly from outside and above my being looking down. Based on the actions of the fire, Emergency and transport ambulance crew, I suppose it was potentially a life threatening event, a stroke or myocardial infarction. I was not aware of this at the time. I only knew of profound comfort, warmth and the most amazing colors.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Described above
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal During this event I was not opening my eyes at all, not responding verbally and was not obeying any commands although I could intermittently move all limbs. I was aware of the ambulance crew doing trampoline squeezes to try to wake me and those should have been painful but there was no pain, nor did I attempt to push their hands away. Basically, no responses at all, though breathing, heart rate was very stable.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I seemed to drift in and out so I cannot answer this; I am normally fit, healthy, active and talkative.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time had no meaning, I seemed to drift, complete awareness of being unhurried, timeless, calm and completely relaxed.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Well, that is a tough one. Since I had no eye opening for many hours even after this event, I'm not sure why I have such awareness of visual images and beauty. Although my actual vision would not be applicable, the visions I was having were incredibly vivid. It's very hard to explain.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I seemed to have acute hearing. I knew the answers to most of the questions the staff were asking but could not respond. It was as though I was a curious child simply observing but not truly a 'part' of the scene.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain There was a tunnel that I was aware of and the light did form a tunnel but it was not a 'tunnel' in the traditional sense. It was more of an arc made by a majestic lights and colors.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain There were amazing lights but I'm not sure of the sources.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Contentment, comfort, complete and delicious absence of pain, glow, relief, humor, and love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No I did not experience a boundary, but I was forced back to awareness/reality by a neurologist who was most insistent that I 'return and wake up'.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths combination of different beliefs
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes The yellow/warm light seemed to be of some higher power.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes But it is undefined and vague now. I felt it strongly at the time.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably existsÂ
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Very powerful messages about love from family and just a general sense of being empowered by love that wrapped around me like a blanket made of light.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. At this point it is still such a recent event that I am trying to make sense of what I heard/saw/remember; ALONG with healing from the sores incurred and the ongoing and still undiagnosed illness that involves relentless pain. I know these events will bring change, but it is too early to know yet, how these changes will unfold.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes Many of my relationships have blossomed since, but I also see clearly the ones that are toxic and must be terminated.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Words do not explain it all properly.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience The events of hovering and observing seems more vivid and clear than the rest of ths experience although I have to say that the whole 'experience' went on for a period of hours during which I seemed to fade in and out.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have been cautious with whom I shared the experiences with but have received only the most positive, supportive responses. Also, several of the people have let me know that THEY experienced a vision, song or thought, which made them aware I was 'in trouble' while this event was going happening.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have always been interested in it, since I am a nurse. When I went into shock in April 2013 I experienced a tiny glimpse of the peace/contentment I was privy to, during this event, a year later.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real It just seems surreal, but so does my trip to hospital, and having to go back to everyday life afterwards. It's all very strange.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably not real At the time I was not formulating opinions. I was, for once in my life, 100% 'in the moment': wonderful.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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