I passed out at home and went unconscious. My father had died, and I had just buried him an hour earlier.I was pulled and taken to a completely white area. There were people shuffling in a queue to the left of me. Most looked very distressed, afraid, and sad. A beautiful strong white light shone from the skies, but it wasn't a sky. It was all white. This light was a different, purer shade of white. It was at an angle. At the bottom of the light was a set of steps, which again, were white. To the right of me was a hideous looking being with its face covered with grisly, spiky, thick hair and piercing, oval, green eyes. Next to the being was my father who had just died. My father was dressed in the same clothes that he was wearing when he died a few days earlier. My father spoke to the being saying, 'My son won't let go of me.' He said it in an Indian language called Gujarati, which we speak. A long queue of people was still shuffling in to my left, waiting to go up these white stairs. At that moment, the being came right up close to my face and SNARLED ever so loudly. Its teeth of bright, white fangs and grisly hair really scared me. It was telling me to let go of my father. I let go instantly. I was holding the process and queue up as it was my father's turn to go into the light, and I wouldn't let go of him.Everything then went dark, and I awoke coughing. I had been so close to the light, enough to touch it, and now I have a gift. I SEE THE DEAD. I SENSE THE DEAD. I FEEL THE PRESENCE OF DEAD SOULS. I HATE THIS, AND I DO NOT WANT IT. I am not scared, but I don't want this gift.
Date NDE Occurred: 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Other: passed out breathless
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I had more consciousness and alertness than normal the whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father who had died a few days earlier.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes White, pure, loving light
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes All religions are untrue. God is real.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Muslim
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience "
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes "
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes "
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes "
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes "
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes "
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes "
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes "
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes "
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes "
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience "
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I see the dead. I sense the dead. I feel the presence of dead souls.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
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