I had a bleed on the brain, died and went to Heaven. There, I saw a lot of lights. The souls of those gone before me were the lights. It was like a room carpeted all over with lights. Way up front, there was God! My daughter stood behind God. She had passed about three years before. I made my way through the lights, and when I got up to the front, the Lord spoke to me. He said, 'I just wanted you to see that I have her and that she is fine.'
I started trying to get to her but she wouldn't come to me! I used to spend days at her gravesite. My car would just never pass up the graveyard. On my way home from work, I would sit there and cry, make sure the site was clean. Anyway, God sent me BACK! He told me that she was his child not mine; that she was mine for only a moment. My grandma was the angel who brought me back. She kept saying, 'Go back baby, you will be fine.'
Then my husband heard me talking aloud in the back of the house. He thought I was on the phone. When he looked, the phone was next to him. He came to see what I was doing. I was crying in my sleep and he woke me up. He says that I was acting really strange. So he dialed 911. When they got to the house, they asked me some questions, and I answered them, so they said that I was okay. My husband insisted that they take me. When I got to the hospital, it was found out that I was having bleeding on the brain. I was put in a helicopter and sent to another hospital to have brain surgery.
The result of my brain surgery is that I have short-term memory problems. I can't tell you if I ate or if I did anything. It hurts, because I used to be such a tuff Lady! BUT to have seen what I have seen - it was all worth it.
Date NDE Occurred: Feb. 2008
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes a bleed on the brain Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) a bleed on the brain
I had a bleed on the brain.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness To me, the whole time!
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? To me, the whole time!
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was all as plain as day.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmother, and my daughter.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw LOTS of lights; it was like a bed of stars.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt an amazement, a Wow! A Praise God!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes My boundary was to not touch my daughter, just to see her.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I pray a lot, even more. I pray for forgiveness for all. I never was a churchgoer. I always felt that God is in your heart, not in the building. He is in how we treat one another. I can remember being raised Catholic; we had to go and confess every Saturday. We would go in the little box, the priest would open the little door, and we would say 'Bless me Father, for I have sinned.' I think we should say, 'Forgive me Father, for I have sinned!' Then one time when I was maybe twelve years old, I went to confession. I got on my knees and said, 'Bless me Father, for I Have Not Sinned This Week!' He paid it no mind and said in his repetitive, unconcerned voice, 'Say three Hail Mary's and three Our Fathers and sin no more.' Then he closed the little door!
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I pray a lot, even more. I pray for forgiveness for all. I never was a churchgoer. I always felt that God is in your heart, not in the building. He is in how we treat one another. I can remember being raised Catholic; we had to go and confess every Saturday. We would go in the little box, the priest would open the little door, and we would say 'Bless me Father, for I have sinned.' I think we should say, 'Forgive me Father, for I have sinned!' Then one time when I was maybe twelve years old, I went to confession. I got on my knees and said, 'Bless me Father, for I Have Not Sinned This Week!' He paid it no mind and said in his repetitive, unconcerned voice, 'Say three Hail Mary's and three Our Fathers and sin no more.' Then he closed the little door!
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Not sure of the question. But there is a Heaven, and there is a GOD!
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Oh YES! Now I am a 'legal nut'. Everyone stays away from me. Because they know I'm going to talk about God.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No No! I tell it to everyone who needs hope!
Or to anyone that has hope!
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have a stronger PEACE! Peace that this world cannot give to you. So now I don't expect too much from people anymore.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yah! Just to KNOW that there is a GOD and that there is a HEAVEN. Now if someone dies I will not swear. I will only feel joy, in hopes of someday meeting them again.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Yah, I think I have told my story to anyone who will listen. Their reaction is, 'That girl is a real NUT!' It doesn't bother me at all. There is this lady who comes around to get donations for her church, she comes all the time. Every time she comes, she brings a new person with her so I can tell them my story. I tell them whether they believe me or not! I hope at least it gets their attention.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real During the experience, at first I thought that the experience was 'definitely not real.'
But when I tried to get my baby, and she wouldn't come, I knew she was at peace.
When God said that she was his child, not mine, it became real to me.
The fact that it is real has given me so much PEACE! I don't spend my days at the graveyard anymore!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Now I know that the experience was 'definitely real.'
I had felt like Moses, when God wouldn't let him into the promised land.
I had turned the other cheek all my life. Right before I had this experience, I had taken revenge on someone that I had given my all to!
I feel like God took me to the Promised Land, but wouldn't let me drink of the water.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I just appreciate this website. It feels like someone is listening to me. And that there is a God and there is a Heaven.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I have enjoyed it just the way it is. I mean, to go around and tell this story sometimes creeps people out. I spend a lot of time on the computer and by far, this has been the best place I have been in all my computer days. May God keep and protect you guys. Keep the Faith! And remember, like I tell everyone now from experience - THERE IS A GOD AND THERE IS A HEAVEN!