Experience Description

I and a good friend of mine were drinking at a bar on New Year's Eve. This person was a lifelong friend of mine. Later that night, when we were both walking home, he decided to tell me he was in love with me. Not like the bud light commercial 'I love you,' but 'I'm in love with you.' I told my friend that that kind of thing didn't interest me, turned my back on him and walked to walk away. He said, 'Rory,' so I turned around to see what he wanted and he sucker punched me. Now I'm only five feet five inches tall and one hundred and twenty-five pounds and he's six-feet-plus tall, one hundred, and eighty-plus pounds and I was knocked to the ground. I jumped up but not in time to avoid another blow. This blow knocked me down a hill. I looked up to see a house light that was on so I ran to the house to ask the person to call the cops (at the time I didn't believe in God, but now I can say thank God there was someone home). The lady answered the door and phoned the police. I was messed up and quite bloody by this attack so she slammed the door on me and about the same time my ex-friend grabbed my hair and pulled my down the steps (there where about four of them). So I slammed down on the sidewalk and was confused.

My ex-friend straddled me and started hitting me saying he loved me, and I was like (sorry if this offends), 'fuck you but I'm not interested faggot.' So he started choking me. The next thing I know I'm lying on my back, but there was no sensation of pain (which was a relief). Everything had a glowing beige light, not the pure white light, but a beige one. There were three beings around me. Two were female and one was male. This is just the impression I had. It was more like two feminine entities and one masculine one. Anyway, these entities were waving me away as if I wasn't wanted. The next thing I know I'm gasping for air looking at a crying guy. All the feelings of panic and pain I had were replaced with a feeling of calm. The next thing I know the police arrived and saved me. And that's my story.

As I said I was an ardent atheist, but now I know there is a God and I have no doubts about it. It changed my life forever, almost as if I wasn't ready, or I have something unfinished to do before I leave this world.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 12/31/97

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack nearly murdered by ex best friend. by lack of oxygen I was nearly strangled to death.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was on my back, but there was no feeling of support underneath me -- nothing was whole. Me the entities, nothing.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Granted I was intoxicated, but the pain and panic left only to be replaced by a since of calm.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time seemed to pass slower with the beings. But it seemed to make the time pass faster until the cops arrived. It seems like I endured less than I actually did.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing. The entities only shook their heads at me. Almost to say, 'No not know.'

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Three beings. They said nothing but the feeling was to return to my body. Almost like they felt my pain. Like what was happening to me was tragic and unplanned.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw a beige light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Where I visited was not Earth. That's all I can say.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm. I felted loved but like I was not wanted. Like I couldn't or shouldn't stay.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No Only that I wasn't meant to die yet.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Without a doubt I was told to return to my body. All three entities seemed to be shaking their heads. As if I was not wanted there. Or as if it wasn't my time. I don't know but I had the sensation that I was to leave. And really I didn't want to.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Now I know there is a God. I learned that there is something beyond death. It has given me the focus I've lacked.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feeling and sense of wellbeing I had while surrounded by those 'beings'.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The good things are my new belief in a higher existence and my renewed focus. The bad things are now I'm more discontent than ever with my life on Earth and my lost friendship with a lifelong friend.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes No one believes me.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was strange, but you knew that, huh.