I was a passenger in a car traveling along a very twisty mountain road with a beautiful fiord on the right. Our car tire blew and we careened across the road and went off a 30-foot cliff. I remember hitting my head three times as the car tumbled over and over. Then I was floating and all was still and calm. There was no fear and in a way felt as if there had never been fear. It was black, enormous and I was everything, everywhere. I felt like I was huge and tiny at the same time. I felt embraced, cradled, but free and open. This huge/tiny expanded space filled me with comfort and belonging. I felt alive and joyful. I have heard others describe this as loved and while it seems more than that, I don't know another word to describe it, except maybe with 'God'.
I heard the driver calling my name and I started flying backward thru a tunnel. I traveled at great speed and distance and at the same time very, very slowly. I was more aware than I had ever been in my life. I was totally me and totally all that was. The tunnel was the most amazing thing I have ever seen/experienced in my life with lights of every color surrounding me, comforting me, delighting me, somehow infusing me. I could feel the vibration of the colors and hear the music of each color and the colors were spinning all around me. I was in the middle of the lights but part of the lights too. It seemed like a very long, blissful, and peaceful time and it was so much more.
It was fascination, excitement, laughing, loving, funny, thoughtful, empathetic, and sad in a very sweet way, all at the same time. In a way like any wonderful emotion, I had ever experienced, but this time enjoyed to its fullest potential. Imagine this and then times it by a thousand or ten thousand and then you might be close to my interpretation of my experience.
It must have been seconds or at the most minutes, because as I woke it seemed as if the driver was just completing her sentence. I was upside down with my forehead in a glacial stream. My body was racked with pain, but I felt like the luckiest person in the world and 27 years later, I still do (and somehow I believe this for everyone uniquely and equally). I cannot fear death, for myself or for anyone. I had always had 'gifts'. Many of those were gone, but I had something more. I guess it was the comfort of knowing that I was okay and that I would always be okay no matter what was happening to my physical body.
I also awoke with an amazing gift (I have a click in my head), initially I used it like a Geiger counter to find painful places in myself and others and put my hands there to provide relief/healing/support. Eventually I realized I could do more. Now I am an intuitive and I hear my intuition and that of people working with me. It took me years of learning how to use it, I continue to be amazed, and constantly learning more, but I always knew it was special. I am not special, just unique like everybody else and I now know I always was even when I did not realize it.
Date NDE Occurred: 'Sept 13, 1985'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident. Direct head injury 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
I was in a glacier stream suffering from shock and a head injury.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Only my friend calling me. She was still calling as I woke up. Her calling did catapult me backwards thru the tunnel.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I did feel like I was everything, everywhere. Completely in tune with the universe and more than I have ever been or ever expected to be.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was moving backward thru the tunnel.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was everything, everywhere
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was not seeing from my eyes but from my entire body which was as big as the horizon which was endless.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Intense, similar to narrative above
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes See narrative above
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes In the floating place, I remember not only amazing light, but amazing dark: void, endless, intense and incredibly beautiful.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It is all that I have ever experienced, in a very positive way. Love (again the wrong word) bliss, joy, sad, everything (not anger) was in every space (all of me and all of the universe and more)
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe That I and everybody were ok and unique and connected. Everything is.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Not sure how to answer, I was flying backwards to my friend. It did not feel like a choice, but equally it did not feel like it was against my will. It was incredibly peaceful.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Non practising catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I don't feel that God has any expectations of me, he accepts me and supports me just the way I am.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Do not know Strong Belief in a higher power, uncomfortable with organized religion
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I didn't really believe in God and now I do beleive in the more than God that I experienced and I beleive that for everyone/everything.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I didn't really believe in God and now I do believe more in the God that I experienced and I believe that for everyone/everything. Everyone is unique. No one is special.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the same time)
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the same time)
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain My interpretation was of great knowledge of self and belongedness and peace and joy (etc). God is a word that works (because I don't know another), but it felt like more to me. (than I expected as a catholic)
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know I will always be ok. I know I am amazing and so is everything.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I knew I was unique and that everybody is unique, and that was the most important thing for me to know and to share.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes The feeling of connectedness with the universe.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love (again the wrong word) bliss, joy, sad, everything (not anger) was in every space (all of me and all of the universe and more)
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I work as a spiritual healer and intuitive from the gifts I received upon awakening.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I think 95 percent of my current friends are on a spiritual (non-religious) quest.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are not words to explain the magnificence and scale.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience Whenever I recall the experience, I am instantly a higher energy than is my norm.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am a psychic, healer, intuitive, gifted person with an audible click in my head that allows others to hear their own intuition and learn to trust it for themselves. I am clairaudient, clairsentient, clairvoyant and more.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Every millisecond.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I don't remember who I first told. I think the doctor or my friends in the ambulance. I have always talked about the tunnel. I don't remember their reaction.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I am sure I had heard of it, but more for people who died and then were resuscitated.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was in incredible pain, but I felt incredibly lucky (not in a religious way).
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can still feel a little of it every time I think about it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I can go to a tiny fraction of that place. Some of my clients can join me there.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The feeling of connectedness with the universe. My interpretation was of great knowledge of self and belonging and peace and joy, etc. God is a word that works (because I don't know another), but it felt like more than that to me (than I expected as a Catholic). I felt that I always existed and always had and always will (and maybe all at the same time).
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I tried to turn this form in before and it timed out.