As I was coming out of anesthesia I could not see, move, talk or breath. I thought, 'I can't believe I'm dying.' I could hear all the commotion and the doctors and nurses coaching me along to hang in there. I wasn't sure they knew that I was not breathing and I had no way of telling them. After a few minutes, I lost consciousness and that's when a beautiful lady came and took hold of my hand. I didn't know where she was taking me, but I trusted her completely. The next thing I remember is sitting up straight as my breathing tube was pulled out. There was cheering, but I began to cry. I guess they saw me crying and said, 'It's alright, you went through a lot.' They didn't realize that the reason I was crying was that I knew I would never see that lady again, at least in this life. I felt enormous love for her and she for me. I then quickly passed out again and woke two hours later with my dad by my side.
Date NDE Occurred: 01/08/2008
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When the lady took my hand.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the lady took my hand.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Have no idea how long I was out. It did feel like it was quick though.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like nothing I've ever experienced.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes A beautiful lady I never knew. Communication was shared awareness.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Can only remember the lady.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Profound love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more aware of God's love for me.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more aware of God's love for me.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I'm never alone.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Can't find adequate words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, there will always be someone with me when I go through trying times.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Soon after with my father and a day later with others. Some asked more questions than others. I'm not sure if this influenced anyone yet.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Read about it, but it didn't effect anything as my experience was personal.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was so profound.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It is still with me now the same as when it happened, maybe more?
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was real!
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None that I can think of right now.