I was having dental surgery for impacted wisdom teeth. The surgery took place in a dental clinic. As they hooked me up to the drip to put me under, I experienced a falling down a long white tube and I could see their faces looking down their end of the tube. I came out into a black partial void. I could see wispy cloud like material. I could see only in front and to the sides of me. I had no body but I could see as though I did. I had no memory of any family or friends or any previous life. I felt myself moving upwards at about a forty-five degree angle. I had no fear of falling or fear of height. As I was moving upward I saw a very large area of condensed light that coated me in such a feeling of love that I thought to myself (even though I had no brain that I could sense) if this is what it is like to die then I can't wait. Then inside my mind, there was a voice that sounded like it could be taken for a male or female that said, 'No, we are not ready for you yet. There will be more pain. You will become a nun.' As soon as the word nun was finished, I was back in my body with extremely worried looking doctors leaning over my body.
They were pumping more oxygen into my nose. They made me stay there to recover the whole day before they would let my roommate take me home. I didn't tell anyone what happened except my roommate and she just thought it was a dream, but it was so real and not dreamlike. It is as real today as it was then. I remember being in a bookstore after Doctor Raymond Moody had written his book 'Life After Life' and grabbed it excitedly because I hadn't known there were other people that had what I had and I felt such relief to know that I wasn't alone.
I was angry that I came back and didn't use my knowledge to benefit anyone. I kept it to myself until I met my husband. I had psychic tendencies before the event but afterwards they were enhanced in several different ways which are too numerous to put in this product. You can contact me if you are interested in these. I am not afraid of death at all. The experience has made me more spiritual but once I felt comfortable telling other people, I got a variety of reactions; some believing some skeptical. I am considered an oddity because of the NDE and the psychic issues make people very nervous. I don't discuss them very much anymore.
Date NDE Occurred: fall of 1967
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Surgery-related 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Traveling towards the light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Traveling towards the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No knowledge of previous life. No sense of time passing.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see without a body. I could see side to side and up and down. No colors, black white and shades of gray. I had depth perception but was existing in a spatial area. The only objects I perceived were the large area of light and smaller pinpoints of light in the distance.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard the voice but it was not out loud but inside my consciousness and I understood.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Long white tube that ended in partial void.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Someone spoke inside my consciousness.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Large condensed area, an entity, not shining but lit from within, slow movement, wanting me, loving me, felt like ice on a burn when the pain is gone.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Desire not to return, wonderment, excitement, unconditional love and acceptance, no emotional nor physical pain.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Only as in I was told these events by the voice.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I was kept from moving to the light when the voice spoke.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have a more personal relationship with my God and moved away from organized religions because they don't listen to what God wants. I was angry for quite a while because I knew I would never find the love I felt in the light anywhere here on earth.
What is your religion now? Liberal secular or not happy with organized religion
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have a more personal relationship with my God and moved away from organized religions because they don't listen to what God wants. I was angry for quite a while because I knew I would never find the love I felt in the light anywhere here on earth.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I was told of more pain in my life. I would become a nun. I have not become a nun yet.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Some more negatively, but others have been enhanced because I am empathetic and sympathetic to others' needs, especially as a former teacher.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feelings of love and total acceptance, no anxiety pain anymore, that the light had substance and wasn't just a warm fuzzy light, it was a being of sorts.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Extreme. The knowing came after the NDE. I have had visions, voices, knowing things, unbelievable dreams that came true, vivid dreams that seemed a reality.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My desire to be with the light. The fear I have lived with since the voice told me that there would be more pain. I told my husband that only my children could cause me that pain and that has come true. I wish that I was perceived by people as very spiritual and that has not happened because I have not used the knowledge I have gained in the way I think I was supposed to.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my roommate right after it happened and she thought it was a dream. I didn't tell anyone else until I met my husband in 1969, which was two years after the NDE. I didn't tell anyone else until I went back to work, which was in 1987, twenty years later. Some friends accepted it because they also experienced a psychic event with me. Others were afraid of me and didn't want to hear about it. Some people stayed away from me because they thought I was a friend of Satan.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know it was real because it wasn't like other dreams and the psychic events afterwards only emphasized the experience as real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Same as above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I was amazed at the psychic experiences.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Have a list of psychic events that people could check off.