Experience Description:

A ferry boat was at the wharf to be painted. As a wharf worker, I helped remove the old paint, working at the top of the wharf. At a height of thirty meters, I lost my grip. I felt as if I was pushed, but I saw no one. I can't describe my fright or my impression of this strange incident. Strange also, is the fact that this occurrence didn't dawn on me until afterwards. Two years later, I went to the hospital with paralysis symptoms in my back. It appeared to have been crushed and it was doubtful that I would ever be normal again. However, after three weeks I was able to walk again. Only the scar of the exploratory surgery remained. This served as a testimony to my story.

I've also felt the experience of having judged a thousand people and felt the emotions of these victims. However, when I finally looked upon those I had judged, I was so terribly ashamed of myself; I did not wish to exist any longer. Especially after a beautiful and radiant being saw and touched me, and I saw at once how I had been wrong and why.

Thereafter, other beings asked what I wanted, as if I had yet to be born and that the choices in that life had to be made now. Questions like, do you want to meet your future wife; do you want children; how long would you like to live, etc. Even now, I'm still putting together the particulars of this incident at a time of serious uncertainty. I remind myself of this and then the solution to this experience becomes clearer.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1992

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Other val van 30 meter hoge steiger

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I surrendered to the moment.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Neither The fall only took a few seconds. The subsequent experiences are yet ongoing.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. When I was lying on the ground after my fall, I saw in the immediate area a multitude of prisms as it were, shining out their clear colors.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I fell in a dark hole.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes An old but attractive person who knew me to my soul and loved me very much, and I talked with ordinary people like myself who were asking about my choices and discussed things that I would experience yet in my life.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? Neither

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Neither een wereld als het onze alleen tijd leek er niet relevant

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was scared to death of dying as I fell but made peace with the fact and closed my eyes waiting for the impact.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? United, one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Past flashed before me, out of my control I understood the universe from its beginning to today and that we have no choice. We develop our DNA.

Did scenes from the future come to you? From personal future I have all faith in everything.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? Neither

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know for certain that everything is being directed by a higher intelligence.

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know for certain that everything is being directed by a higher intelligence.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes We people will become telepathic at some future time. There will no longer be deception or strange behavior such as murder or war. Everyone will see you coming. It is time for this phenomenon to occur and the birth of such people was described to me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I don't accept everything people tell me, I have my own purpose and ignore status.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The entire incident took maybe two seconds, but it seemed like hours.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have faultless intuition and invisible help.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I now have great faith in nature.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes On that same day, but I was not believed, sometimes I think I might have gone mad.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was a wonder that I survived.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I'm still amazed, but that's wonderful.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes LSD and magic mushrooms.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I'm actively pursuing greater personal depth. There was no bad part in the experience.