My kids had just got off the bus and we were talking and I was telling them that I love them and was talking to them. (I mention this because that is my last memory of that day.) I wake up four days later in the critical care unit, where my wife tells me I seized while I was asleep in our bed.
During the time I was out: I continually had a white veil covering my physical eyes. During which time I could hear arguing in the background, all the while getting a strange feeling as though it were all over me. Yet there was only one voice that I could hear clearly. I heard the accusations against me. Those words still to this day ring in my mind. Afterwards, I was standing above the world looking down upon it, just as I saw the creation begin and every man and woman that is upon the earth today, then I saw a fire spread across the land for I then knew many answers. At this point, I began to feel heavy as I realized I saw my body lying lifeless in a bed with a blanket on it. I became so heavy and painful and feelings I would not wish upon my worst enemy.
The veil is removed. I opened my eyes and I see two women, one giving me more drugs to bring me back, asking me if I know where I am. My beautiful wife as I tell her I love her. Once released from the hospital I told my wife of these things as soon as we were in the car and passed out for several more days. She then had to take me to a Veterans Affairs hospital.
For many days after being released from the hospital, I would know strangers from having seen them before. This drove me nuts. Now I can hardly remember anything.
Date NDE Occurred: November 5-9 . 2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'multiple seizures, that could not be brought back into control, when they were, went back into them once again.' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
My brain was seizing and would not stop, could not breathe, had me breathing on machines because my brain had used up all the oxygen it could produce, my lungs were collapsed. Respirators produced the oxygen my body needed at the time. Doctors asked my wife to find my Will if I had one. They said that if I was lucky enough to make it back, that I would not walk for years or talk again.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal While watching the creation.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While watching the creation.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
When I woke up four days later, all this time I was out, seemed like seconds to me, as well as painless.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not see with my normal eyes.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard just what was meant for me to hear. Some things were blurred, while other things were crystal clear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I moved freely.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Slide-show of all that is in the planet today, only I did get to finish it, I was brought back first. I don't understand the meaning of this, was hoping you could help me with the answer.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes More like white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Above this eart watching it being created and destroyed by the true creator
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I did not realize it until I was ready to unite with it. Worse feeling I have ever had. I don't think I wanted to reunite with such a weight.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I was being held accountable for a few things and could hear it.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate LDS ( However I had not been doing the things I was supposed to)
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate LDS ( back in Church needles to say )
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes More loving, have changed about everything.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How does one explain going to bed with his wife of eighteen years and then waking up four days later in the critical care unit at the hospital? I don't have any memory of how I got there, nor did I feel anything wrong.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? What I hard the voice say about me. Which is nothing good I assure you.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Ten minutes (my wife) I do not know. She to is already a good person.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Will always be in my mind.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Will not change.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I look for the love in all things. As I should have been doing before. Especially knowing my memory is going and if I have another one I may not come back the next time.