Experience Description

I was in a motorcycle accident and flew from the back of a motorcycle head first into a bumper of a car. I left my body, went through a cloud, and came to a wall with electrical currents going back and forth on the top. I was beginning to wonder where I was at when my grandpa appeared in front of me. I recognized him immediately and he informed me that I could either stay there or go back and be with my family, it was up to me. He told me this several times and said that he was the only one I knew there but I was welcome to stay or go back and be with my family. I chose to go back and be with my family and he said that was my choice and that he loved me. I remember coming back down through the clouds and coming upon an accident where there were a bunch of people surrounding someone all bloodied up on the ground and thinking, 'Bummer.' I awoke in the hospital three weeks later and was informed I had been in a motorcycle accident and that a neighbor had performed CPR and mouth to mouth resuscitation on me the day of the accident. Apparently he checked my pulse and breathing and saw I had neither and performed them on me to bring me back.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 04/23/1982

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Came off motorcycle and banged head.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I remember going through clouds and was wondering where I was going, I seemed to be aware all along as this incident took place after getting into the wreck.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I just remember going up through clouds and arriving at a wall that had electrical impulses going back and forth on top of it.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I remember seeing my grandpa who had died when I was six years old. He looked younger than I had known him but I recognized him immediately.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? A sense of wonder at where I was going and where I had arrived at.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control My life flashed before my eyes in an instant.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The coming back to earth and seeing everyone surrounding a person on the ground and thinking 'Bummer' for the person who they were working on. Also, my grandpa looked a lot younger then I had ever remembered him and I recognized him immediately. I have always wondered if the wall meant that I would be waiting to be judged for my life at a later time.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my family shortly after having awakened in the trauma center.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was eerie remembering it and in such detail. I have always wondered why I was spared and left to come back to life.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still remember it precisely as it had happened and have always wondered why I was spared from death.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I was buried in a trench in 01/31/2001 it all happened so quickly and as I was being buried a boulder of dirt hit me square between the shoulders on my back my life flashed before my eyes as it had in the motorcycle accident. Just as that happened I thought to myself, 'God Damn this isn't how I want to die.' Thinking of the thought of being conscious as the life was squeezed from me from the burial in the dirt. Just as I thought that something grabbed me and pulled me to the right and up, if I had been where I was as this happened I would have been crushed. I was buried to my shoulders and both people who witnessed this accident swore they saw me buried and after it was all over, I was up and buried to my shoulders. I still wonder after that as well what is my purpose for having been spared twice in my life from accidents.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Other thing I would just like to know if others have had any surprising events in their life after being brought back. Like I had when I was buried in the trench and I remember something grabbing me and pulling me to the right and up. It was as if something protected me as this happened to me.