I could hear the voices of the doctors and then they just faded into a lower volume and they were muffled. I then felt the doctors begin cardiopulmonary resuscitation on me but it was like I was standing in a room and someone was banging on the floor causing a sound above me. I could hear my heartbeat slowing down and it slowed down a lot. I then felt myself begin to fall and I just kept falling and falling. I felt calm at the time. I wasn't scared. I was calm like I was falling through a tunnel, a never ending tunnel. Then it felt like I exploded and I could hear the doctors around me again. I was still unconscious.
Date NDE Occurred: 13th March 2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Drug or medication overdose. CPR given. 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I had taken two tubs of anti-depressants and slit my wrists.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard the doctor's voices as they were beginning cardiopulmonary resuscitation, but they soon faded out.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I began to fall I felt more ‘alive’ than before. Peaceful and calm, yet excited.
I know it sounds bizarre.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was much darker.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The hearing from the real world faded out and it felt like I was in a dark box or room and I could hear my heartbeat gradually slowing down like it was above me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place It was like never ending darkness. I felt isolated, like I was the only one there.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was calm.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I don't believe in life or anything after death and that's what I had, I was just falling in the darkness.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God does not exist
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife does not exist No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Unknown
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my mum about it first and she was intrigued by it.
Then I told some of my friends who found it interesting.
Generally people were interested about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real My heart stopped beating for about one minute before they managed to get it started again.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still firmly believe I experienced death that day.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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