I remember having a tightness in my chest and feeling weak. I went to tell my dad that I wasn't feeling well, but he had already left for work. So I went back to my room thinking, ‘Maybe I'll feel better.’ I remember sitting on my bed and feeling short of breath. I must have passed out because the next thing I knew, I was staring up at the ceiling and floating closer and closer to it. I began to panic, feeling claustrophobic, being so close to the ceiling that I could touch it. In my panic, I managed to turn over. As I looked down, I saw my body lying on the bed, eyes and mouth wide open. My lips were bluish-purple, and overall I looked pale blue. To the left of me there was a bright, sparkling shaft of light shining down from the ceiling right next to the bedroom door. What was unusual about this light was that it was *not* coming through the window. Scared, I knew I needed help but I couldn't go out the bedroom door, because I didn't dare to go near that strange light.
So I decided to pound on the wall in hopes of getting my brother's attention. When I had gone back to my room a few minutes ago after trying to find my father, he had been in the living room, right next to my room, watching TV. To my surprise, when I attempted to BANG on the wall, I went THROUGH it and wound up in my closet. Once in the closet, I found some money that I had hidden from my brother. It had gotten lost during a time I had hidden it repeatedly in different places so he wouldn't find it, and I had finally lost track of it. I then went through the closet wall into the living room where I saw my brother watching MTV and eating a bowl of cereal. A music video by Blind Melon called ‘No Rain’ was playing. I yelled at my brother but he just continued to eat his cereal. Then he did this really gross thing – he blew his nose into his hand (and I'm not going to mention what he did with it after that!) He then went to the kitchen and poured another bowl of cereal, sat down on the couch, and yet again blew his nose in the same way. I realized he couldn't hear or see me. Fear set in, and my thoughts went from, ‘I need help’ to ‘I need to get back to my body.’ I passed through the closet wall again, back through my bedroom wall and to the area of my bed, where I managed to situate myself directly above my body. As I was floating, looking down at myself, I suddenly I felt as though I were being sucked back in. And instantly it felt like someone punched me from the inside. I felt my heart bang against my chest as I gasped very loudly, taking in that first breath. I jumped up, feeling full of energy at first, yet realizing right away that I was very weak and could barely stand.
Confused about what had just happened to me and questioning if it was real, I went to find my brother. He was still in the living room, and he exclaimed, ’You look blue! You look like a ghost!’ I walked across the hall to look at myself in the bathroom mirror. I was shocked to see how I looked – just the way I had seen myself from above – pale blue skin, bluish-purple lips, and you could even see the veins in my face. I went back to my brother and told him what had happened. He was shocked that I was able to tell him everything that I had seen him do and that I could describe the music video he had been watching. I went right to the closet and pulled down the money I had hidden, which of course was right where I had seen it as I had floated by. I didn't tell my dad about any of this. I was afraid that no one would believe me.
Date NDE Occurred: July 1993
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain I believe I lost consciousness during an asthma attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I felt extremely light, as if I could float away. I was actually able to pass through walls.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Yes, very bright and sparkling. I had seen this same light in previous experiences.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I know my sense of hearing and sight were the same. Smell, not sure. My sense of touch was off, not the same.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Frightened at first, because I was unsure about what was happening. I feared that I was dying. Then I became calm and focused when I was trying to find help and then when I was trying to get back to my body.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I was able to see, hear, and later describe everything I had seen my younger brother do in another room. I attempted to bang on the wall and went through it. I had yelled but had not been heard.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future ‘Uncertain’ because I had had experiences of this nature before this one.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes No, not ‘after’ – before AND after.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The worst was thinking I was dying. Not that I was afraid for myself, but for my family and how it would affect them. Also, not being able to share my experience with others without people thinking I was crazy.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My brother – he was shocked and amazed. I didn't share it with anyone else, because as a child I had tried telling my mom of an experience and it had scared her.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No