I didn't see a light or deceased loved ones but I recall looking at (although I had no eyes or a body) a bluish green almost translucent membrane. This membrane dominated an entire side of wherever I was. I could not see through this membrane but I could see shadow movement going on behind it and hear sounds and could feel the presence of many some-things behind it. I not only had very enhanced senses but my sense of taste and smell were so enhanced that I could taste and smell this membrane. Each time they stopped my heart I saw this with perfect clarity. I wasn't afraid but looking at it, I could sense great energy behind this membrane and it did not seem entirely benign. Nor did it seem evil. It was like there were a great many different personalities interacting with each other behind it.
Date NDE Occurred: June 13th 2008
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes While jogging I was bitten by something and infected by it. I was treated with antibiotics which caused the offending parasite to produce antigens during death which caused a severe heart flutter which I lived with for a week until I went to a walk in cli Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I was being treated for severe heart palpitations by emergency medical technician's first in a clinic then in an ambulance and then twice by doctors in the intensive care unit at a hospital. I was given a drug in an IV that stopped my heart with the intentions of starting it back up and hopefully would resume its old beat rate. Each time my heart was only stopped for ten to twenty seconds each time but it seemed much longer when it was stopped.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure I really understand this question but I was very alert before and after each time they stopped my heart. But in this other state I was much more than what I am now. A sense of power without the ego.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No question about it. What we call time here is not accurate. It works for our world but it does not have the depth (for lack of a better word) for the other. I don't think time really exists there at least not in the way that we know it here.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not experience brightness but I did experience awareness and clarity on a scale that I cannot begin to explain. My senses are two-dimensional now but not during this experience. The best way to describe it would be that I could sense an added depth to things. This life seems flat compared to the other.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear but not the same way I can hear now. Very difficult to explain but there was an added depth that we do not have here.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No Something was communicated to me from this membrane. Not in words but I cannot remember it or maybe I don't want to remember it.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt no fear and no pain and I didn't really care if I did not go back. I felt awe and wonderment. I wasn't surprised because I had this feeling like this was somehow familiar to me.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Not then but a few months later I'm having to relive so many past events that I had forgotten and they haven't stopped.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future We are facing very hard times ahead. So much suffering, death, ugliness, it's going to be bad. And the sad thing is we have the power to change it but the majority of people are ignorant of this and they must learn before it can get better.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I think so. I was not permitted to cross into that membrane yet. They would not let me. I knew with complete certainty that I would not die that day. It was not my time.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate never go to church. Still do not.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Not religious but spiritual.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I wish I could explain it. I don't think that it was special but it explained certain things instantly and without words. I lost interests in many things after this experience; mostly in my desire for material things. Things like a big house and a lot of money (although a little is nice) chasing women and wanting sex seems silly now.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes The only relationships that matter to me are with my daughters. I'm single and I used to spend a great deal of time and energy trying to meet the opposite sex. I no longer care about that. It seems so trivial and pathetic to waste so much time and energy on that.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is somewhat difficult to explain because of the difference in time that seems to exist between this world and whatever the other side is. What is only a few seconds here seems much longer in the other side.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I feel different and see people differently than before. I can tell when someone is not telling me the truth much better than before.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The entire experience was meaningful and I think of it often and can see it as if it had been imprinted upon my soul. I can see it whenever I think about it as if it just happened.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told a couple of coworkers and family members and although they listened I could tell that they thought I was crazy so I no longer bring it up.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes A little. You know the white light at the end of the tunnel, seeing deceased loved ones.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real Although it was vivid I did not really want to think about it but it kept coming back to me like it happened yesterday.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Although it was vivid I did not really want to think about it but it kept coming back to me like it happened yesterday.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No I don't drink, smoke, take any legal or illegal drugs or medications.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Thanks for allowing me to share this with you.