I remember walking and being outside looking at myself but not really knowing it was me and a warm light that almost seemed to caress me and I was not afraid nor did I want anything or was I in any pain. At the time, I was being life-flighted to San Antonio or was all ready in the hospital but had four broken ribs a broken neck, shoulder and arm, pelvis and sacrum, head trauma and internal injuries. I was not in pain. In fact, I felt the best I ever had with a presence of peace I've never known before. Two weeks after coming home from the hospital, I passed out from a blood vessel bursting in my frontal lobe. In the brief time I was unconscious I had the same feeling. Later, doctors were unsure about the vessel rupture; maybe I had just fainted. I spent fifteen days in a coma, twenty-one days in the intensive care unit and fifty-four days in the hospital. I will spend the next year trying to recuperate.
I saw my paternal grandfather in heaven. He was on horseback and saddled another horse. It was a solid white horse, a beautiful beast. Though my grandfather didn't speak, I knew it was for me. I felt a presence of others, though I don't know who. They were all familiar and happy to see me. I was very pleased to be there. It was like being at a party for me and we were all gathering to go somewhere. I don't remember going there. But I remember waking up in the hospital with my family around me and wanting to go back. If I could just go back, I wouldn't hurt. I went back to sleep and dreamed I was at the lake fishing; Lake Texhoma a place my family goes every year I had been at the lake the weekend before. I tried to dream of the lake every time I slept in the hospital.
Date NDE Occurred: 6-1-07
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Direct head injury car crash sustained 12 fractures punctured liver and diaphragm head trauma had to be ventilated in flight to hospital. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal Not sure.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No sense of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see without looking it was like just being it.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't have to hear, I just knew.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandfather, we were in heaven and I could go or stay the choice was mine.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It seemed to almost touch you and hold you, a calming presence.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm another dimension.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace and serenity, complete fulfillment.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Read the Bible more.
What is your religion now? Moderate Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Read the Bible more.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I've tried to let everyone around me know how much I love them and how precious everyday of our lives are.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The total feeling of peace and serenity is the best way I can describe it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Knowing true peace.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My grandfather and the peace.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My wife and therapist in the hospital, I'm not sure whether they were influenced but my wife has started to attend church with me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I was aware that people had experienced life after death.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real In the hospital it made me feel better to recall it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I believe my soul left my body and was going home but returned to my body to finish the life I have on earth.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No