Much of the auto accident is blurry. I remember flashes of white surrounding me as paramedics try to get me out of the vehicle, and voices. I am in pain, then out of pain in darkness. There is a time when I am in darkness, floating in something like fluid with red curves around it. I am content and relaxed just floating. There are other people around me, just floating, just as content. Then I hear voices again of people asking me questions, probably in the emergency room.
I am unconscious again in darkness, and then I awaken in a large 'void' gray area. Muted light seems to be coming from above me, but there is no source. I am floating above other people, in an upright position. There are people above me and below me, vertically, and as I look directionally right down the row of people, there seem to be thousands upon thousands in the same formation. We are all silent. At the moment of awakening, there seems to be a feeling of something being pulled back or 'peeled' from my eyes and face. I reach down to touch the person below me and to my left. She has red hair. I want to ask her where I am. As I reach down, I am called.
At first, the man in front of me is approximately thirty feet away from me. He appears to be flooded with white light in a white suit, bald, with extremely white teeth. He floats me out of formation, then in front of him. He is not in a white suit, but he is 'glowing'. Inner light is flowing out all round him. He has extremely blue eyes. I am so happy to see him! I know him and he knows me. I cannot recollect who he is now. I hug him and tell him I miss him. He tells me it is not my time. I disagree! I see a line of people going through a dark tear in the fabric of the void and a man stares at me. In fact, there are other people milling about on the 'floor' who have very puzzled looks on their faces, which are slightly blurred to me. I am puzzled too. I want to go where the other people are going, but again, I am told it is not my time. I point again, to where the people are going. The man points to the upper right corner of the void and I am suddenly back in my body.
I know I am there because there is someone telling me, 'You scared me to death! Don't you ever do that to me again'. I awoke to find myself in a scanning machine. I don't know for sure, but it must have been the x-ray tech and my brain scan must have flat-lined! After that, I was back - in pain, but back. What does it all mean? Why didn't I see the light?
Date NDE Occurred: 'November 5, 1984'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury Concussion Other Auto accident where I was in a coma, but in and out of the other side.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was reaching down for the lady with red hair. When I was talking to the man.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I felt as if I had been there for a very long time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Blurriness and brightness. Tunnel-vision.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no sound. When the man spoke, it was inside my mind.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The man and other people who were just as puzzled as I was. I believe we were all communicating telepathically.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The man. I'm not sure who he was. Although I am a Christian, I don't believe it was Jesus. I think it may have been an ancestor.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Puzzlement, contentment, and I really, really wanted to stay. Love. I forgot about my family totally.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Baptist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes GOD IS SO MUCH MORE - WE ARE SO MUCH MORE.
What is your religion now? Moderate Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes GOD IS SO MUCH MORE - WE ARE SO MUCH MORE.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Just that it wasn't my time. It was irritating!
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Some people think I have flipped my lid. I don't talk about it much.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I think the first time I went back, I was back in the womb, or a womb-like place. I know the man was significant to me, but I have no idea who he was.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A long time. People who are spiritual believe me. People who are not, do not and think I'm nuts, or that I had a bad head injury. No one is influenced.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I heard it was possible.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I realized that there was life after death, although I didn't know how to tell anyone. I realized that there must be a God, and that there is definitely more beyond this life. I was inspired, but so puzzled about what we hear about Heaven. This wasn't Heaven. I'm sure if it. But, I'm still not sure what it is - I think about it every day.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I remember as though it happened yesterday. I remember everything so vividly. If you are in a coma, isn't it just supposed to be dark? If you're dreaming, aren't you supposed to feel as though you are dreaming? It was not always dark, and there was no dreaming.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? After the experience, I have endured horrible depression and anger. I don't understand how someone twenty-three could have wished to stay there, but I sure did.