After suffering a gunshot wound to the chest I was unconscious when I arrived at the emergency room. Within minutes, I was in shock and dying. Suddenly I was looking down on my body and the crowd of doctors and nurses working to revive me. I looked around and found that I was up above the room and in the very left hand corner of the 'picture'. Looking to my right, I could see a brilliant light as if it were coming from behind a door an indefinite distance away. I wanted to go through the door but could not because of what the doctors were doing. Now they were putting tubes into my chest and I yelled at them to 'Leave her alone, let her go, stop hurting her!' repeatedly. I no longer saw that person, that body as being me, but as a separate entity. Yet, unless they let that entity die, I could not live to go through the door to the light. I felt no pain, no fear and my emotions were calm but I felt an urgency to get to the light because the door was slowing closing.
Suddenly a shock opened my eyes and I was back inside that wounded body again in the intensive care unit. I felt a terrible loss inside. The next day when the surgeon came in, I greeted him by name and told him he should have let me die. He was amazed I knew his name and more amazed when I described and named the other doctors and technicians that had worked on me. He said I was already comatose when he got there. I even described the layout of the instruments he had used and the layout of the emergency rooms. He said there was no way I could have known these things.
Date NDE Occurred: 1973
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack GSW to chest Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Multiple bullet fragments throughout chest, collapsed lung, excessive blood loss.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal There was no question of what I needed to do, no decision for me to make of whether to stay or go. I did not think about past, present or future, just that at that moment it was my chance to go to the next stage of life.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After going into shock.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I felt an urgency for the humans to leave my body to die so I could reach the light before the door closed completely.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? While I considered myself looking into the room, I was also looking across a universe of space to the light behind the open door I needed to reach before it closed. I was seeing the people from above and at eye level at the same time; I could read their name tags, even smell their breath. I moved among them and through them without touching them. It was like watching the same show from ten different camera angles.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I was hearing, but not in the sense of sound coming into my ears, it just 'was'.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I was also looking across a universe of space to the light behind the open door.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Really felt calm. I knew what the doctors were doing must be hurting the body and I wanted them to leave it alone, it had already suffered enough pain. Emotionally, I was at peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know now the church of God is in our soul and not in a creed or building,
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know now the church of God is in our soul and not in a creed or building,
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt God had let me know that he is there and is waiting for me when this body does die.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I became a kinder, gentler person.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of total peace and the sense that life would go on forever in a form different than the bodies we now inhabit.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared my experience only with some relatives and close friends. At that time, one hardly ever heard of people having NDEs and I did not feel many would believe me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was crystal clear in my mind then of having actually occurred and now, thirty years later, it's still just as clear as the day it happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was crystal clear in my mind then of having actually occurred and now, thirty years later, it's still just as clear as the day it happened.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have been in several traumatic accidents that probably should have killed me, yet at the moment when I should feel the most terror that same peace and calm wash over me and I have just thought maybe He is ready for me now. So far though, he must have more work for me to do here.