I remember looking both ways then starting to cross. I still don't know if it was just a dream but it didn't feel like it, it felt like I was there, it was so real. All of a sudden, I'm in this beautiful place, such a beautiful landscape, the colors were so vivid. It was full of trees, flowers, and the smell from the flowers.
I saw people walking in this garden and a white building in the middle of this wonderful place. I started walking towards the people and the building when I saw this one man. He seemed so full of love and tenderness. I felt drawn to him. He looked at me and said, 'It's not your time yet. You have to go back as you still have things to do.' I argued as I didn't want to go back, even if it meant I'd have to leave my daughter behind, somehow I knew she'd be okay, and this place was so full of love and peace and joy and beauty. I can't even begin to describe it, the words we have in this language just don't seem to come close to the experience. He smiled at me and touched my shoulder and said, 'You have to go back - it's not your time to come back home yet.' The next thing I remember is coming to and thinking, excuse the language, what the hell am I doing in an ambulance?
Date NDE Occurred: 13 October 2007
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Was hit by a van as I was crossing the highway. I was on a bicycle.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the whole time I was there - it was when I came to that the pain and the rest hit me and I got foggy.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Just everything was so much more vivid, real - makes the here and now seem dull in comparison.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Like I said I am hard of hearing but there I could hear everything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes There was people walking in this garden and I seemed to recognize them and was walking to meet up with them when this one man stopped me and said I had to go back. This man was surrounded by a glowing light all around him. He had such a loving feeling about him, a gentle spirit.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Not sure - things just seemed very bright, but not blinding just glowing.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I found myself in a beautiful garden, filled with flowers, trees, a lake ar river...some type of water....a while building in the middle of the garden...looked like marble.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, joy, the feeling of loving and being loved without any judgments.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I guess for me it's wondering why I was sent back and how will I know what I'm supposed to do. But I do know one thing, I know there is no death, we just move out of this house our spirit is in and go Home. I have no fear of death and believe me when it's finally my time to go Home I'll be pounding on the door to be let in.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Part of me has come more introspective - I'm reading more, spending more time outside. I haven't shut myself away but I'm like still trying to understand.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is and isn't. Some parts I can describe. Others are just too hard - it's hard to put into words that can describe the things I saw, felt and heard.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I just seem to have an inner knowing - hard to explain.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the beauty - the whole experience.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes You know I heard about them, etc. and thought to myself, 'Sure, right.' Not to say they didn't happen, but until I had it happen to me.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just know, I was there. It was too real. I know dreams and this was too real. I can still close my eyes and see it and I have to admit I was angry for a long time for Him sending me back. One thing, even though I wore no helmet and bounced my forehead off the pavement (I flew across two lanes of traffic) I was told this as I don't remember anything of the accident.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It's just still vivid in my mind and heart. I can still see the gardens, the building and feel the joy and peace I felt there.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It's hard for me to understand why I was sent back when just a week ago someone else had almost the same exact type of accident and they didn't come back, that haunts me. They had two little babies and were well loved in the area, why did he not be allowed to come back and I was?