It was almost as if I was coasting and in the near distance I saw an extremely wide really bright light. Almost as if I was entering a well-lit foggy area. But at the same time I could see a field. The love and just so much inner peace was so over empowering that it cannot be expressed in words. I felt presence there. I do not mean that I think someone was there. It was the actual feeling of presence of several. My grandfather spoke to me. I did not see him or hear his voice. I felt him say, 'I am not going to take you away from your father like I was.' (I remember them exact words like it was yesterday.) At that time, my grandfather had been deceased for nine years. The whole experience was enlightening to me, as my life has changed forever for the positive. My experience was the actual feeling of the love not only in my body but in my inner self. It is very hard for me to describe. I guess you have to feel it for yourself.
Date NDE Occurred: July 1990
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death Grade five liver laceration, I died twice on operating table.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was totally aware of what was happening at the time of the experience. But I was unconscious from my accident.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I was a bit surprised to feel my grandfather talking to me.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Just a very short tunnel enough to see widening in front of me.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was like looking into a light bulb but with a softer glow, and it felt almost as if the light was drawing you near.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I completely believe there is a higher power and I certainly believe in angels now. I appreciate love even from a stranger. I guess I overreact to things that make me laugh. I laugh at the silliest things whereas I never have before. I tell people what they mean to me. I am more open.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My whole attitude toward everyone and thing has been a one hundred and eighty degrees turnaround.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I cannot begin to explain to allow someone to understand what I felt and went through.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Feeling the feeling of being completely engulfed in love.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They think I have lost my mind. My mother and father thought I was brain damaged when I woke up and asked them about my grandfather. Nobody was influenced by it except me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I tried the drug ecstasy once and looked up into the sky. The whole sky was lit up and the clouds were outlined in a brightness that I distinctly know was in my experience. I had looked at my boyfriend and he had an angel-istic glow around the frame of his body, and I told him it was time for me to go home. That what I was seeing and feeling was almost the same thing I had experienced before.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I really wish others would feel what I have. This world would be a better place.