I poised myself sitting upright against the wall, near the glass pane I had just broken. I rested my right arm in my lap and each time I took a breath my arm would gurgle. I figured if the ambulance was called at the time, I broke the glass they were over 15 minutes away from me. I knew I had about 8 minutes left. I thought to clamp the wound but a voice in my head said 'Lie still, you're fine!' I tried to keep track of my breathing and lost count. I could no longer keep my head up or my eyes open and fell into a gentle sleep. This was when I was aware that I was dying.
I was not frightened by this thought. I had no direct fear of the death awaiting me and embraced it with warmth and recognition. I knew that I was still conscious but didn't know how. I could think in five different directions at once. The expansion of my experience was greater than I've ever experienced in life. Death became a new experience to me. I wanted this experience. I could talk to trees and ants on the ground. I experienced a 'life tone' of the Earth that I felt on one level.
I stood in a field by a river, by a bridge. A man walked past me and I tried to get his attention. He walked about 10 feet away from me. It was daytime, although I knew it was night in the building I was just in.
I said earlier that I knew that I was, but I didn't know just what I was. I could see, hear, feel and experience. Experiences came to me with lightning speed and clarity. As my consciousness expanded, I moved physically. At one moment, I was above the Earth and began to forget my family, my own name, even that I had fingers on my hand. I passed through four dimensions about as thick as a piece of paper. As I moved away from the Earth, I could feel 'life tones' of space and other planets. I then came in contact with a 'life force' not as advanced as our own, who expressed the emotion 'love' to me both individually and collectively. I hope to return to them after my second death.
As I moved on, I met a dark haired friend. He was a friend who glowed yellow light from himself and as I tried to approach, he stopped me. I was frozen in space now, and in conscious experience. He said to me 'As you believed in me, I shall believe in you and thou shalt not die.' This I didn't understand because I was more alive than I've ever been in 33 years.
Next, a cop was kneeling over me, telling me that I couldn't go to sleep and had to stay awake and keep talking. The paramedics were about to hoist me to the gurney. For the next year, I had mini death experiences that would come into my life at odd times.
Date NDE Occurred: 'July 9, 1993'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack 'In my escape from my attack, I punched my fist through a 14 to 16 foot plate glass window' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
The glass that fell down around me severed an artery, and I watched myself bleed to death while hoping and waiting to hear a siren from an ambulance.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just as my consciousness left my body and I forgot who I was.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I experienced more time in the afterlife than had happened here in the physical life.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see the gentleman in the next dimension, dimensional boundaries and the 'life forces' that contacted me.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear life tones of different life systems, trees, ants, asphalt, the Earth, space.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My friend with the dark hair, who with his yellow aura stopped me. I didn't know him from my past or from biblical impressions. He said to me 'As you believed in me I shall believe in you and thou shalt not die.'
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I went first to the dimension right after I passed over, with the gentleman, with the blue sky, river, bridge.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, contentment, peace, self-awareness and my nature in the world of things.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control There were times in my life when I was supposed to die, and the narrow escapes were shown to me.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist I studied Seth by Jane Roberts and accepted those views
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No Actually, my beliefs have been enforced by my experience.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist I still study Seth
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No Actually, my beliefs have been enforced by my experience.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I was given information about an event in the future, nothing major like a train wreck or something on that scale. I'll become clearer of the event and my purpose as the future of it unfolds.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No I have not gone into depth what happened on that day in my current relationship.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I communicated with a voice that was telepathic. I felt 'life tones' that were musical in nature. I could experience the 'earth tone' as different from the 'life tone' that were trees.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The awareness I experienced, the personal experience and the future experience.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I did, and after their reactions decided to keep quiet about the whole affair.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I knew of them, but never paid much attention to them or the experiencers.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I became more withdrawn the first weeks after the NDE. I became more aware of the world around me. I wanted to return to the NDE to look in different directions and I wanted to learn about Mary and Christ.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I believe I will die again. I will not go to some 'Hell'. I'm not afraid of death in the terms we understand it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I always wanted to go back and experience more.