I was driving in a car and it seemed as if I was about to crash into a truck. But, something took over the steering wheel, shot me upwards towards a bright light and I was surrounded by some loving beings. As I was going to the light as message was shared with me. 'No matter what you have done and not done you are loved. No matter what you will do and won't do, you are loved. The world is perfect and you are perfect.' I also recall a conversation where I had decided I hadn't achieved what I had set out to do, so I decided that as much as I loved this place, I would return to my body. And boom I was back in my body driving along with no truck in sight anymore. I was in tears of joy, the feeling of love radiated throughout my being; it was the most amazing point in my life to date.
In the weeks after this I went on a knowledge search, trying to read everything I could on what happened, on life after death, on spirituality etc., I was reading eight or so books at a time. I also knew that my job involved helping people.
Date NDE Occurred: 1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Other Car crash that didn't happen in the end.
Potential car crash with a truck.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal On the way to the light source.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? On the way to the light source.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Whilst I was there it seemed like a long time, e.g. five minutes, however, it must of only been five or seven seconds in our time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything seemed very vivid.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Messages I received seemed to be just implanted in my brain. I don't know where they came from. Very clear and loving.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I shot straight up, as if I had jets in my body towards a great white light. It was a strong, swift force that sent me upwards.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were surrounding me, and they were like balls of light sending me unconditional love. I didn't see any faces, just the light.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A beautiful bright white loving light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Taken to the source of light and unconditional, all encompassing love.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete and utter love being sent to me from those I saw and the light stream I was in.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was like a judgment review of what had happened, but I can't recall the detail now, but it was a really quick flash and it came from a communal point of view, i.e. I was part of a community whose actions/past was being reviewed. In this life my family does see itself as belonging to larger groups of people, i.e. it's not just our parents and siblings, it's a huge extended family and more.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Only that which my parents chose for me.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Always believed in a greater being/creator, less tolerant of those assuming you must attend their church to know God and get to heaven. Try to re-run what happened, in a sense to tune into that place again when in need of spiritual guidance.
What is your religion now? Liberal 'No need for a human-controlled religion, am instead more Spiritual'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Always believed in a greater being/creator, less tolerant of those assuming you must attend their church to know God and get to heaven. Try to re-run what happened, in a sense to tune into that place again when in need of spiritual guidance.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Yes, I received an inspiring message.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I had such a sense of knowing about stuff after it, I have found it difficult to stay in relationships that disbelieve. It's like I have relationships because I'm there for a healing/unlocking/teaching reason and then something happens which forces me to make a decision to move on. I tolerate violence even less now. I dislike seeing people in pain. Therefore, I a strong drive to ease the pain of others. I have made many new relationships probably because of this.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Words don't seem to allow you to share the beauty of the experience. The love is immeasurable and incomparable.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Dreams, flashes, knowingness, but I don't always understand them. Seeing things when I am too hung-over. Ability to control my dreams.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole experience was such a gift.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only with a hand-selected few people, only to help them through a difficult situation. A long time passed before I felt confident to share this experience. Some looked at me in shock and surprise, others in awe, who really felt my description.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I can't recall if I had ever read about it. I'm sure I would have been extremely skeptical if I had.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Completely real, but was in awe of it, it was so amazing, I felt so honored to receive such an enlightening and loving experience.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real A spiritual experience that was completely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No I wish. :-)
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Hi, I would love to see more questions (maybe a new survey) on Post-NDE, e.g. the types of experiences people have after that, e.g. how has this affected your relationships, work, day to day life, day to day conversations, day to day activities. Greatest challenges since and how you overcome them.